upon which he rolled his eyes and flapped a wrist. âCould you bring it next time, Miss, maybe, and Iâll bring mine too? Then we could have a girlie time putting make-up on, couldnât we?â
I was finding it difficult to know where to go with him in this mode and wished I knew more about the reasons why children adopted such mysterious ways. In the meantime, though, Iâd just have to apply common sense. âBoys donât really wear make-up, do they, Nathan? Just girls and ladies, mostly. Anyway, you look very nice without it.â
He drew a hand across one of his eyebrows to tame a stray curl. âDo you know,â he said suddenly, âthat we have a parrot in our house? It talks to me all the time; itâs
so
funny.â
At last
, I thought,
a safer subject
, even if I wasnât quite sure I believed him. âI used to have a parrot that talked, too,â I told him. âWhat do you call yours?â
âItâs called Peter,â he said, moving around to the other side of my desk and pulling out the chair. âAnd it says âGet the lazy fucker out of bedâ and âFuck off to schoolâ and âDonât dare talk to that Mrs Watsonâ.â
He hadnât sat down and as I looked at him I watched his expression change. He was staring at me intently now. âWhy do you think your parrot says that?â I asked.
âI donât know, Miss,â he said. âAnd do you know what else he says?â
I shook my head.
âHe says âAnd donât fucking tell social services that you and your dad sleep on a mattress in your bedroomâ.â
Nathanâs expression was now mask-like â as if he really was just parroting words at me. It was so strange and unsettling that it made me shudder.
âAnd
do
you and your dad share a mattress?â I asked him, conscious that, as he had already told me this, I wasnât leading him.
He looked me in the eye but his lips didnât move. Instead he shrugged, then said, âMiss, can I go and read in the Unit now? Iâm tired. I donât really want to chat anymore.â
I hesitated, wondering what I could usefully say next, but in the end, unable to come up with anything that wouldnât feel as if I was pressing him, I let him go. I then pulled my chair under my desk, ready to write up yet another report, but thought better of it. Perhaps Iâd just go straight to Gary, or, better still, speak to Martin in social services myself.
Martin was, once again, lightly irritable. Well, at least, that was how his voice sounded when I outlined Nathanâs latest comments and he explained that he had already visited the family â by appointment â and had concluded that there was nothing amiss.
I told him again that I disagreed; that I felt Nathan was suffering some form of abuse; that I was no psychologist but that it seemed to me heâd developed these different personas as a way to both distance himself from the trauma of what was happening and to enable him to tell someone about it.
In return, I was told â and in no uncertain terms â that the situation had been dealt with; that they were a family that were doing their level best to cope with a child with behavioural problems â one who he understood was about to be reassessed through the school. Perhaps then weâd all be in a better position to help him.
I went back to my office and typed up my report. I wasnât sure quite what else I could do. âMattress,â I typed. The word lingered.
I had lots of kids to help support and an invariably full timetable, so I didnât see or hear anything of Nathan till the following week, when he arrived for our session with a big grin on his face, having got through the intervening time without causing any trouble.
âNo fights,â he said proudly, âand no bad language, neither. So, Miss, do I get a reward now?â
I told him