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going to get me a scholarship to play college ball.  It’s my dream.”
     
    “You mean it’s your father’s dream.” I lashed out with my pain and devastation.
     
    “No it’s MY dream and we’re getting in too deep.  It’ll kill both our chances for college and life.”  Jame stood up.  I couldn’t tell if he was angry, upset, or what.  He looked like a total mess.
     
    But that was nothing like I was feeling.  “Your Dad and Father Tim tell you to stay away from me so you can be a successful basketball player.  What am I, garbage? A witch who will make you lose your basketball powers? Explain it to me, Jame!” My voice was getting louder and louder and some of the kids were looking over at us.
     
    So here I was in the school cafeteria with Jame breaking up with me for the second time- this time because we had almost gone too far.
     
    I ran out of the cafeteria before I completely broke down in tears. I felt dirty and cheap and wanted to scream at him, YOU wanted all that.  YOU were the one who pushed me for more. And now it’s ME who’s the danger?  I was the one who would ruin his college basketball career? I went into the girls’ bathroom and stayed there for the rest of the school day.
     
    That day I vowed to hate Jame Patterson, his Dad and Father Tim forever and ever.

Chapter 19
     
    My meeting with my editor went really well despite my lack of sleep.  I wrote for a semi-prestigious news magazine and website with my specialty of human-interest stories.  I did get to that good journalism college and get a degree- not quite the way I thought it would go, but the end result was the same.  I was a journalist of moderate recognition with a following online around the world.
     
    When I returned home from my trip to the city, I kicked off my shoes, put on my jeans and went to sit in my attic.  I stared for a long time at that dusty white box at the bottom of a pile of old boxes.  This one had some things in it that would call out for me to come look at them every once in a while, but I had resisted it for years. 
     
    In that box was a piece of my heart, a piece of my past with Jame. The piece that ended us absolutely and forever and ever.
     
    I debated opening that box as I sat there for hours.

Chapter 20
     
    28 years Ago - Our Lady
    of Sorrows High School
     
    Another summer from hell. No Jame.  I heard from Maddie that he was dating a girl from another town, just casually she reported.  Nothing serious.  I tried not to care, but I did.
     
    My ups and downs that summer were almost manic, but I hid them from everyone.  On the outside I was doing just fine.  On the inside, dammit, I let that guy destroy me again and that made me so angry.  Would I ever get over him?
     
    Senior year was coming soon.  Sometimes my heart felt so dead I could care less about Jame and our final year at OLOS.  Other times the pain was so deep I could feel it in my toes.  Bu no one would see that.  I would go back to school calm, cool and collected.  I was the journalist intern working on the local paper that summer, and I could see my future.  If only I could get through senior year and all that crap that was coming.
     
    On Sept. 6 th OLOS rang its bells and opened its doors to the graduating class.  We were seniors! We ruled the school! I tried to summon up some enthusiasm but felt empty and unsure of myself.
     
    Maddie to the rescue! Our friendship had deepened into a sisterly thing and she knew exactly how I was feeling and exactly how to help me.  She locked arms with mine and swept me up the stairs into our “senior gathering” in the auditorium to hear all about the glory and responsibility of being the oldest in the school.
     
    Maddie plunked us down in the middle of the soccer team and flirted with every single one of them.  She and David were on the outs and she celebrated her “freedom” by fooling around with some of these guys.  They flirted back and it spilled over onto me