tour, they were sweating acceptance to kindergarten.
And now, at forty-six, we were empty nesters. Impossible to accept. Just the two of us? For decades and decades? How crazy was that?
But okay. Change, the law of life. Saturday now meant sushi in the neighborhood followed by a movie.
Blair had gone to snag seats, so I was the one in the popcorn line. Just ahead of me was a woman in her early thirties. It was a warm night, and she was wearing a sleeveless blouse with no sweater, tight black jeans, and black boots.
Standing behind her, I couldnât help but notice that her bra was too tight; in back of the armholes, it forced tabs of flesh into public view. Worse, it announced that there was no one in her life who saw her from behind before she went out.
The line was moving slowly. There were twenty people ahead of us. She wasnât checking her phone. On weekends, I never do. So it was boredom or chat.
âThis is like being in a bank line,â I said.
âI wouldnât know. Iâm unemployed.â
âOh. Who did you used to be?â
âHR for an investment bankâthe first to go. You?â
âLawyer.â
âWall Street?â
âMatrimonial. What are you seeing?â
âThe vampire movie.â
âArenât you a little old for that?â
âMy friends said that. So Iâm here by myself.â
We were moving steadily along, almost at the front of the line.
âI donât get it,â I said. âWhatâs the attraction of having a guy suck your blood?â
âItâs not the blood. Itâs the neck.â
A clerk called out: âNext.â
âWomen also like to have their necks licked ,â she said, and she gave me a fifty-watt smile as she walked away.
How do you read an encounter like that?
As a New York moment: two people, a brisk exchange, happens all the time, on to the next.
Orâand the thought sent my pulse redliningâthis unemployed woman who used to work in HR at an investment bank was alone and up for anything on a warm Saturday night in mid-September.
Chapter 8
I donât remember his name, and I doubt his book outlived him, but I sometimes think of a man whoâs been dead for more than a century. He was French. Titled. Rich in a time when that meant going out four nights a week. It took him only minutes to put on a dinner jacket; his wife required an hour to dress. Rather than seethe, he decided to write a novel while he waited for her to appear. In less than a year, heâd finished it.
My situation is just the reverse. After a night out, Iâm waiting for my wife to undress. To wash the day away. And then put on an outfit only Iâll see.
Iâm quickâI shower between the drops, Blair saysâso I go first.
Then, while Blair disappears, I have tasks.
I have performed them two or three nights a weekâfor years.
They never get old.
Pour two shots of tequila or single malt and two glasses of water. Roll a thin joint. Light a candle. Choose music that can take us elsewhere.
Sometimes I hear Blair singing. Saturday night she was silent. Until, through the bathroom door, she announced what sheâd been thinking about.
âThat line in the movieâdo you think thatâs true?â
âWhich one?â I asked, though I knew the line she meant.
The door opened. Blair was wearing a thick white terryÂcloth robe. And spiked heels. I hoped for a short conversationÂ.
She quoted: âMaking love to your wife is like striking out the pitcher.â
âYou were offended?â
âYou werenât?â
âRight after he said that, she slugged himâand the audience laughed.â
âFirst they laughed at his line,â she said.
âBut she got the last laugh.â
I handed Blair a shot glass. She drained it and then took the second glassâmy glassâand knocked it back.
âSomething for him, something for her,â she