impulse, gently suckling her skin and laving it with his tongue.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” Tears flowed as she convulsed with him, her orgasm rolling through her.
“You didn’t deserve what happened to you that day. None of this is your fault.”
“I should never have left Logan’s house. The demon…I knew there was something wrong. I fucked up.”
“No, no, no. It’s going to be all right. I promise you.” He pressed his lips to her neck, her cheek, her hair, cradling his mate.
“Don’t lie to me. Please. I couldn’t take it.”
“I have a plan. I always have a plan, my sweet Syd.”
“God, I love you.”
“I love you too. I swear to you on my life we will fix this.” As Kade gently removed himself from inside her, he held her against him in the darkness, unable to let go.
Chapter Five
Kade lay watching Sydney sleep. It had been the first night in over a month they’d slept together all night in the same bed. While he’d never left her side after her attack, she’d been unconscious for weeks. After she awoke, she’d spent most nights pacing or crying, with no semblance of peace.
His conversation with Luca weighed heavily on his mind. As happy as he was that Sydney was temporarily sated, it was just a matter of time before she needed to feed again. She’d told him of Mya, and her desire to keep using her. But his concern remained that she’d never be fully independent.
Making love to her several times throughout the night, it wasn’t lost on him that she’d never bit him. Her desire to had been palpable but he knew she resisted, afraid she’d hurt him, too. They couldn’t go on forever like this.
His thoughts drifted to Anthony’s impending arrival. Within hours he’d be at the house, and Kade still hadn’t told Sydney about the prison break. With everything she’d been through, he didn’t want to worry her. But the discussion was inevitable. As soon as she found out what had happened, he knew she’d want to help Anthony with the investigation. He’d argue that she was vulnerable, and she’d counter that she’d been healed, and was ready to go back to work. It would be nearly impossible to stop her.
But that was why he’d fallen in love with her. She’d always been strong, a protector of humanity. Given her challenging recovery, he feared she wasn’t ready. Unable to feed properly, she’d soon become a danger to others if she was unable to control her impulses. She’d have killed Gemma if he hadn’t stopped her. He anticipated she’d need several months to adjust to her transition. Having the discipline to restrain the urge to retaliate when faced with confrontation was a skill she’d hone under his wing. Letting her loose on the streets with her former partner could lead to disastrous consequences.
His primary concern kept circling back to her ability to feed on demand, especially if she became injured; something she’d be hard pressed to do if she was relying on a donor to surgically drain the blood from their vein. If what Léopold had suspected was true, that she’d developed a psychological block, they had to break the cycle. Kade reasoned that inducing pleasure during feeding would build her confidence and allow her to live a normal life as a vampire. He considered Luca’s suggestion that Anthony could be the one to help. Only once had he shared Sydney and they’d both done it to save Luca from dying.
Kade leaned over, and pressed his lips to her cheek. She stirred for only a moment before continuing her healing slumber. He slipped out of the bed and went to the bathroom. As he stared at himself in the mirror, he contemplated the hard decision he’d have to make.
“Hello, Anthony,” Kade said. The bitter pill he planned to swallow rested on his tongue. He wasn’t sure how to broach the subject, but the idea was set in his mind. “You can put your bag over there.”
“Hey man, how’s it goin’?” Anthony replied. He shook Kade’s hand and