changed even a little bit, a lot of other things had changed. After she left, I had kind of a rough period. I was heartbroken and confused, and I thought I could get her back. I even got an extra job, and worked my ass off to save up enough money to go see her in Australia. There was a lot I wanted to tell her, but I wasn’t sure how. I figured I’d start there.
“You know,” I began, stroking her cheek and not entirely sure what to say. “When you left, it kinda messed me up.”
I looked down at her and saw surprise, guilt, and an unspeakable sadness all pass over her face very suddenly.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered, and turned away. “I never wanted to hurt you. I didn’t want to leave you, you know.”
“But why wouldn’t you stay in touch? We could have worked something out after you graduated. We could have been together,” I said, all my hurt feelings from back then suddenly rising back up to the surface. I tried to push them back down, but with Anna right there it seemed hopeless.
“I guess I just thought it was impossible,” she said, softly.
“Are you sure that was it?” I asked.
“What do you mean?”
“Are you sure there wasn’t some other guy?”
Anna looked at me and cocked her head.
“I really don’t know what you mean, Hunter. We’ve been apart for nine years. And yeah, I’ve had a few boyfriends. But that isn’t why I didn’t want to—”
“That’s not what I mean. I mean, I went to Australia. I went after you. It took me about six months to save up—”
“What? Hunter, how did you do that? I can’t believe you went all the way there, and—” Just then, Anna stopped short. “Wait. Why didn’t I see you? What happened?”
“I tracked you down. Flew all the way to freaking Australia. I found your address and waited for you. I was going to surprise you. But then I saw you walking down the street with some guy’s arm around you.”
“Oh, God. What? I don’t understand. This is so confusing. I can’t believe you went all the way to...” She trailed off again and looked off into the distance sadly.
“What is it, Anna?”
“Nothing, I just, I was just thinking. It was six months after I left, you said?”
“Yeah, about that.”
“And what did I look like? Did I look the same?”
“Sure. Same long brown hair. Same beautiful body.”
“What about the guy I was with? What did he look like?”
“All I remember is that he was completely bald,” I told her. “But why?”
“That’s what I thought,” she answered. “That was my friend Ben. I swear to you, he’s just a friend. And at that time, he was just helping me through a rough spot.”
“Just a friend, huh?”
“Yeah. Really. He’s still a friend, and he’s always been only that,” Anna said, then paused. “And then you went all the way home after that? Without even letting me know you were there?”
I nodded, remembering that day. How awful it had been. How I’d scrimped and saved and then felt like such an idiot for hopping on a plane without even talking to her first. Now I felt like an even bigger idiot, because it was clear that she was telling the truth about this guy Ben. And as long as we were being honest, it was about time that I told her the truth about me, before we got too deep.
“Listen, Anna. There’s some other things I really need to tell you. When I got back from Australia, like I said, I was pretty messed up.”
“OK,” she said, listening intently.
“And I didn’t know what to do, I felt so lost. So—”
Just then Anna’s phone started to ring.
“Damn,” she said, looking at the screen. “I’m so sorry but I really need to take this. I already ignored this person once today.”
“It’s OK. We can talk about it later.”
“All right. Actually, I wanted to ask you, what are you doing tomorrow? I’m going to the beach with Betsy and Ted. Do you want to come?”
“Yeah, definitely,” I said, shocked that she was inviting me out with her