coughed up.
But her words are poetic.
Beautiful.
Powerful.
Painful.
Like she cut out a piece of herself
and left it lying there on the paper,
just so I’d know—
I’m
not
alone.
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Jag is Sitting on the Windowsill Nearby
He’s staring at the moon.
Thousands of miles from here.
I wonder if he’s thinking about
the three goals he wrote for Roger’s exercise:
* Get out of here without the family meeting.
* Get out of here without the family meeting.
* Get out of here without the family meeting.
But the sad thing is nobody gets out
of here without that almighty meeting.
Especially when decking your dad
is what got you here in the first place.
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Donya’s Staring at the Moon Too
But she doesn’t call it the moon.
She calls it Lunabella
because that sounds like
a sexy-hot girl who would
meet her at Chicory’s
and drink café mochas
until they were both
as happy as exclamation points,
and they’d hold hands
on top of the table
not just underneath
even when Donya’s
stupid parental unit
steamed in
hotter than coffee
ranting about how two girls
holding hands was a sin.
I ask Donya if that really happened.
But she doesn’t answer.
Instead she just says that Skylar
can tell her so-called God
to shove His so-called plans
and stop messing up
every minute of
her so-called life !
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Jag Hops off the Window Sill
“My father’s Higher Power was a lightbulb,” he says.
“A 60-watt incandescent.”
Jag tells us how he used to go to Al-Anon meetings
before his father drank up all their savings
and started talking with his fists.
“AA lets you believe God can be anything or anyone,” he says.
“Like God can be Buddha or a ceiling tile or even a lightbulb.
It doesn’t really matter. As long as you believe that something
is your Higher Power.
I ask Jag if AA would let Colin Krusher be God.
“I know Colin is more like a fallen TV angel, “ I say.
“But he’s been resurrected four times on my favorite show
and he’s the only angel who’s lasted through series nine
so that pretty much makes him immortal, if you ask me.
Plus, in real life, Colin founded a charity that gives away shoes
and umbrellas and mattresses to old people who haven’t
had a new bed in like half a century.
So Colin deserves to be God way more than a 60-watt.”
Jag nods and looks at the floor.
“Yeah. I guess Colin could be God,” he says.
“But just so you know,
that lightbulb thing
didn’t turn out too good for my dad.”
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Lights Out
Donya’s grinding her teeth again.
Like she’s mad at half the world.
I bet my dad doesn’t have to
listen to a racket like this
when he’s at the Hyatt
or the Holiday Inn
a thousand miles
away from home.
I bet he props himself up
on fluffy hypoallergenic pillows
and drinks four-dollar bottled waters
and watches the 10-p.m. news
with all the comings and goings
of some random city.
And even though he’ll only
stay there a day, maybe two,
I bet Dad cares more
about what’s happening
in De Kalb, Illinois,
or Madison, Wisconsin,
than he cares about
what’s happening
to me.
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My Dream on the Second Night
I’m on that dark country road again
where the sky is purple
and the air is so full of static
the hairs rise up on my arms.
Then