good sign she could talk, even if she had to croak the words out.
âDonât try to talk. Just breathe calmly.â
Breathe calmly. The cough was a crocodile, its eyes sinister above the surface of the water. It wanted to pull her under, but she wouldnât let it. She could still fight back. She made herself breathe in time to the words Mrs. Yoder had taught her: ââYou will not fear the terror of the night.ââ In. Out. ââNor the arrow that flies by day.ââ In. Out. ââNor the pestilence that stalks in darkness.ââ In. Out. ââNor the destruction that wastes at noonday.ââ Too bad she did fear all those things, no matter how many times she said the psalm.
âHas this happened to you before?â Dad asked.
âA few times in boarding school. My roommates would run and get Jakarta.â Jakarta. Jakarta singing. ââThey climbed and climbed to the steeple top, âtil they could climb no higher. And then they twined in a true loversâ knotâthe red rose and the briar.ââ Dakar would feel warm and attached , knowing that Jakarta was the red rose and she was the briar.
âMore than once or twice?â Dadâs voice made her a little scaredâas if he were mad, though she knew he probably wasnât mad. Just impatient.
âI canât remember.â She didnât want to remember. âOne of my roommates told Jakarta that sometimes it sounded like I was holding my breath, and this roommate had trouble sleeping, anyway, and she said I made it all the worse because she felt like she had to stay awake and listen in case I ⦠you know. So they moved her to another room.â
âI wish someone had told us.â
He isnât mad, Dakar reminded herself. He just sounds that way. âJakarta used to sing to me,â she whispered.
âWell, lie back. Here, Iâll turn out the light, and then Iâll sing.â
It wasnât âBarbry Allen,â but she liked his songs, and he had a good voice. Such interesting music in the world. The shepherd flutes in Ethiopia. And sometimes in Egypt there were weddings right outside the compound, with wailing Arab music all night. Everyone showed up for class bleary-eyed after nights like that, and tests were postponed. In Nairobi Mom got their cook to teach her some songs in Swahili.
Mom. Dakar sat up. âWhereâs Mom?â
He stopped in mid-phrase, and she had the discombobulating feeling that they werenât in Cottonwood at all, but out on the African plains together, in the dark. Out there she always knew when heâd heard a dangerous sound, a pestilence that stalks in darkness. Sheâd lie there with her heart just throbbing.
âThings can get unpredictable out here, fast,â he used to tell her. âWhen I say frog, you jump.â She had sat with him in silence like this many times, wondering what was happening, listening to the way his breath whistled in and out. Not asking.
But no. They werenât in Africa. Perhaps pestilence didnât stalk in darkness in quite the same way in Cottonwood, North Dakota. âNever mind,â she said. âNow I remember you told me sheâs been in bed all day. Did she eat any supper?â
âNo. But donât worry, Dakar. Sheâll be fine.â
She settled back. Fine. But what if she wasnât? What ifâwhat if the hoodies were after her? When the hoodies pulled Mom into the Allalonestone in Maji, Jakarta knew what to do. Now Dakar would have to figure out how to save Mom. âDonât worry,â people always said. âDonât worry.â But she had to worry. âWhatâs the scariest thing that ever happened to you?â
âHmm.â Dadâs fingers found a knot in her left shoulder and kneaded it so hard she wanted to wince, but he liked her to be strong, so she didnât. âWell, I think you