toilet.â
Aha , I think to myself. So thatâs where Helga and Roy had their romantic rendezvous tonight, in the rough wooden building that is used by the annex guests. In a flash I can see them standing together in the damp-smelling shower room with its handful of stalls and its slimy floor and walls. If thatâs really where they hid out during Royâs visit, thatâs pretty pathetic.
On the other hand, Iâm burning with curiosity. Did they just sit on the flimsy wooden stools and talk to each other? Did Roy hold Helgaâs hand and stroke her face? Did he embrace her; did he kiss her? Was Helga already crying when they parted?
Will I ever know? When I look down at Helga again, sheâs thrown her head back on the pillow, one arm is flung across her face, and sheâs as silent as if sheâs fallen into a deep sleep.
Five
Every morning after breakfast, my father and some of the other male guests at Moskinâs walk into Harperâs Falls to pick up their newspapers, so they can keep up with the war news. They call this exercise their âconstitutional.â Afterwards they return to Moskinâs and sit on the porch all morning discussing the latest reports and chewing on their cold cigar butts from the night before.
Iâm sitting nearby struggling with my knitting because itâs too cool to go for a swim this early. âLeave it to the Marines,â my father rumbles with an air of authority, as he rustles his newspaper. âThose boys finally held off a Jap ground attack on Guadalcanal. They donât come any tougher than that.â
One of my dadâs cronies reminds him that the Japanese are still way ahead of the game. âSo what? Have you any idea how many American prisoners of war theyâve taken? And what about those Jap air attacks and those Jap submarines in the Pacific?â
âAahh.â My father waves his stale cigar in the air. âThatâs the kind of defeatist talk thatâs bad for the war effort.â
Itâs a relief when I see Ruthie approaching on the lawn that slopes up toward the main house of Shady Pines, and I skip down the porch steps to meet her. I honestly donât see how anybody can keep this war straight in their head. There are so many âfrontsâ. . .which I guess is why they call it a âWorld Warâ...the second one since the first World War. Thereâs the Pacific front where weâre fighting the Japanese who attacked Pearl Harbor in Hawaii in December 1941. Thereâs Europe, where Nazi Germany has scooped up one country after another. Thereâs the Russian front, where the Germans are still in a fight to take over Russia and are now waging a big battle at Stalingrad. And there are also German armies fighting in North Africa to keep us from trying to invade southern Europe. I know that much from listening to my fatherâs pronouncements about how important it is to support the war effort (and why Iâd better stop whining about having my nose fixed, or else...).
âWhereâs Helga this morning?â Ruthie wants to know.
Itâs been a few days now since Helgaâs midnight rendezvous with Roy, about which Iâve told Ruthie and only Ruthie.
âMrs. F. took her into town to have the doctor check on her leg.â Iâm still carrying my knitting needles and my ball of yarn. Iâve got about two inches of my soldierâs muffler done, but it looks like Swiss cheese and willprobably have to be ripped out when Mrs. F. gets back.
âShe still hasnât said anything about what happened that night?â Ruthie asks. âDoes she ever make any sounds in her sleep?â
âHow should I know?â Most of the time, Iâm sleeping, too. âBut I can tell you for sure that sheâs mooning over him. And I know he gave her his address in the Navy so she could write to him. She probably will, too, if she hasnât