hand anyway.â
âGood,â sheâd said.
End of tape.
Yes, I thought, and thereâd been no more murders during the summer.
The Counselorâs Wife looked up at me, shaking her hair back behind her shoulders.
âWhat did it feel like?â I asked for no particular reason.
âWhat did what feel like?â
âHis handshake.â
She laughed, and her hair tossed.
âFunny you should ask that,â she said. âSweaty, to tell the truth.â
I watched the smile drift from her face. She was gazing intently at me, waiting for my reaction.
âI donât get it,â I said. âI mean, I guess he sounds sick enough. And all that âNow I Lay Me Down to Sleepâ stuff and sleeping with the lights on, I guess he was talking about himself there and not a friend. Is that right?â
âIâm not so sure, but I assumed so too.â
âSo maybe heâs afraid of pillows. But that doesnât make him a killer, does it?â
âWhat makes a killer, Phil? Do you know?â
âNo,â I said.
âNeither do I.â
I think Iâve called her face angular before, but not thin, and when sheâs looking right at you and talking animatedly, which is about the only way she talks, it seems full, broad even. Only now it did look thin, small. Chiseled. She looked distracted, or maybe just tired.
âI spent a lot of time going over it today,â she said. âIâd canceled all my appointments, not because of him but because something else came up. A good thing, though, as it turned out. Or maybe a bad thing, who knows? By the way, I donât tape all my sessions, only with certain patients and they have to agree to it. Anyway, I went over the material today, the tapes and my notes, and I called up a friend at the Times for the dates, and thereâs a correlation. Iâm sure of it, Phil.â
âWhat dates?â I said.
âLook,â she said. âThereâs no way you could have spotted it, just listening. I hadnât either. But what I call the crazy sessions? The really angry ones? There was a rhythm to them. What you just heard was nothing like having been here. You could feel the electricity in him, Phil. Palpable almost. And building up. It was like ⦠like ⦠well, like when you feel a lightning storm building. Iâve seen them in the Hamptons. Iâve seen the ground actually smoke when the lightning bolts hit. It was like that. Once he almost put his fist through the wall. Sheer rage, and always directed at women. At me mostly, the surrogate Mommy according to theory. But then, by the next session, it would be as though exhaustion had set in. Utter exhaustion. I always thought it was because heâd worked it out himself the time before, or worked it out of himself, and that if we did that enough times, working it through â¦â
Iâd heard the rage all right, particularly on the next-to-last tape. And then that kind of relapse on the last one.
âThey coincide, Phil,â the Counselorâs Wife said quietly. âIâve verified the dates. Each one of those murders took place in between.â
But there she lost me, at least for the minute. It was like my Full-Moon Theory. Besides, the last session sheâd played for me had taken place in July. We were now in September.
âDid he go to Alaska?â I asked.
âI donât know.â
âBut whenâs the last time you saw him?â
âI havenât,â she said. âNot since then. He was supposed to call the first week of September to make an appointment. He did call. I scheduled him for last Friday.â
âAnd â¦?â
âHe never showed up. Didnât call, anything.â
âAnd the Killer killed again last night.â
âThatâs right.â
âWell,â I said, âif heâs the killer, then at least you canât blame this last one on