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    Wanting to believe him, I went to the desk and looked at my assignment. “It's math.” I turned toward him and frowned. “I'm having trouble with this problem.”
    “Sit down and I'll see if I can help you for once. I'm pretty good at math.”
    I slid into my chair and showed him what I'd done so far. He stood behind me, and as he leaned over me, I tried to concentrate on the paper in front of me.
    He pointed to one of my calculations. “Here's the problem. You skipped a step right here.”
    Trying to breathe normally despite his proximity, I erased my error and corrected it. He stayed where he was, his warm breath tickling my neck.
    “I really like you, Lily,” he said in a husky voice as he leaned closer.
    Shocked, yet thrilled, to hear him say what I'd been dreaming of, my pulse skyrocketed as his lips brushed against the side of my neck. Then his lips moved to the curve of my cheek. Everything felt surreal and it seemed as if things were moving too fast. “Trevor,” I said, turning toward him, but it only came out as a whisper.
    Dazzling blue eyes bore into mine as longing surged through me. His face came closer, and our lips met for a lingering kiss. I closed my eyes, my heart racing. When our lips parted, he knelt next to my chair, putting him on the same level as me. Placing one hand behind my neck and the other around my waist, he gently pulled me toward him. As his lips neared mine, I gazed into his blue eyes, and when our lips met, his eyelids fluttered closed. Somehow that was more intoxicating then when they were open—it was as if I could see how much he enjoyed kissing me. His tongue probed my mouth and waves of desire washed over me as I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back.
    He pulled me out of the chair and it seemed as if I had no control over my body’s movement. We stood together, our mouths entangled, but after a moment his mouth released mine. I gazed into his eyes, captivated by his smile. Taking my hand in his, he led me to my bed, then he sat on my comforter and pulled me onto his lap.
    As he gently stroked my face, panic flooded me as I realized what he was expecting. I stood abruptly, shaking my head from side to side. He stood next to me and tried to pull me into his arms, but I pushed him away and ran into the living room. I stood in the middle of the floor, waiting to see what would happen next.
    Trevor was by my side in seconds. “What’s wrong, Lily?” After a moment, he led me to the couch.
    I sat on the cushions as he sat beside me and took my hand. I didn't meet his eyes, staring at my lap instead. Finally I looked up and met his gaze. “I’m sorry, Trevor.”
    “For what? You didn’t do anything wrong.”
    “I just can’t do what you want me to do.”
    He stared at me for a moment, apparently at a loss for words. “That’s okay. We don’t have to right now. I can wait until you’re ready.”
    Trying to gather the courage to tell him what was on my mind, I bit my lip. This was completely new territory for me and I was scared that what I was about to say would push him out of my life forever. “That’s just it, though. I’m not going to be ready any time soon.”
    Confusion played across his face.
    “I know it’s no big deal for most people to sleep around,” I said. “But a long time ago I made the decision that I was going to wait until my wedding night to . . . you know.” This was harder than I thought and I held my breath, waiting for him to walk out of my life.
    “Oh.” He stood up.
    My breath came out in a rush as I accepted that my choice was going to be the cause of me losing him. He walked toward the door, but to my surprise, he turned around and walked across the room. I realized he wasn’t going to leave, but that he was pacing as he gathered his thoughts. Giddy with relief, I smiled.
    He stopped walking and sat next to me again, taking my hand in his. I watched his face, worried about what he was thinking.
    “Lily, even