lock-down for coming here, I'm not going to volunteer any information about who we are. Or where we've been. I grab the plates from the ground and close the gate myself, leaving the locking us in to Jax.
"Even so, I'll bring you some blankets. I'm not an evil dictator, I'm just doing my job." He shakes his head as he walks away.
Shame fills me, I was more concerned with my pride than taking care of Timid. If I'm supposed to be her caregiver I should be thinking of her first, me second. Thankfully, Jax brings us over some blankets and opens the door handing them to us. I nod my head in appreciation, but don't meet his eyes. I'm too ashamed.
Timid and I sit down in the dirt, with heavy blankets draped over our legs and shoulders. With all eyes on us, we begin eating the food that's nowhere as good as the food at The Light. I can't help but wonder what we're doing here. Doubt creeps in again. Should we have left?
But either way, I suppose, we were locked up. Only this cell is much smaller than the Refuge and Lukas isn't here to help.
From where I'm sitting, everything is in my hands.
Lukas
I head to the Energy Room after the service to meet Head Councilman Conviction. Before this morning, I hadn't seen him in a few months, and I know he's going to press me for what really happened with the power outage. But that isn't what I want to talk to him about.
All I need from him is permission to go to Refuge Two. Immediately.
As soon as I can get there, I can find Grace, Timid's closest friend. And Basil, a girl Lucy feels obligated to help, for reasons I don't entirely understand. All I know is if it's important to Lucy, it's important to me. I have to believe Lucy knew what she was asking of me when she told me I had to get them before I left for her and my parents.
The Energy Room is the best place for a private meeting. It's the same at every Refuge, the Energy Room is my closest thing to an office. Vessels and Humbleman never set foot in them, and the Councilmen only do when they have a concern to discuss with me. Which is rare. But for me, the Energy Rooms are where I've spent half of my life. They are rooms built because of my parents scientific skills, and were customized for my body. Although it's hard to believe anyone had me in mind when the rooms were created.
I walk down the steps, passing my bedroom door but stop before I enter the Energy Room, now brightly lit from my work the night before. Head Councilman Conviction sits in my chair. The chair I'm strapped to each night as my electric charge is drawn. His eyes are closed and his arms rest on the cushions. He doesn't acknowledge me entering the room and silently I stand, watching him with mounting anger. He has such nerve to sit on the chair where I sacrifice my life. He doesn't have to say he wishes it were he in the power seat, it's clear that's how he feels with the smirk resting on the corners of his mouth.
"Conviction," I say, quietly breaking the silence.
"Nobleman. The service went well I assume? No one beat you down for the power outage? All is forgiven?" He keeps his eyes closed, still seated in my chair.
"No one said a word, if they are thinking something no one is telling me."
"They would never come to you with their concerns. You are their idol."
"I don't think the Vessels would voice their concerns with anyone, Conviction. I've learned a lot of troubling things since I arrived here. Things you need to know." I take a deep breath, not wanting to relive the horror of the hall of 'dark rooms', but knowing Conviction needs to know the truth.
"It is none of your concern, Nobleman."
"I think it is though, the punishments happening here are torturous. I don't think you understand." I shake my head to myself. Conviction still chooses to keep his eyes closed tight. Closed against the truth.
"I know exactly what's going on. It's the only way to control the women at this place, and their children. It's always been this way, but
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