climbing aboard and strain to look. To begin with I glimpse only the side of a shoulder. Then the woman steps into view. She glances briefly down the plane at us and then continues talking to Sweaty and the Giant. Sheâs youngish, in jeans, with a leather bag over her shoulder, and sheâs wearing a silky silver headscarf and black-rimmed glasses that obscure her eyes. Her companion, in dull gray office trousers and a white shirt, comes over and offers her a cigarette. She takes one, and he lights it with a gold lighter. The flame blazes up, making her glasses glint. She takes a drag, turns to him, slaps him on the back, seems animatedââhappy, evenââas though this is some kind of reunion, some sort of celebration.
âWho do you think
they
are?â David whispers. âMore hijackers?â
âLooks like it.â My heart sinks. Now thereâs no chance of rescue.
âJust wait till I tell my friends!â Tim says. âIâve been held up at gunpoint, sat near a bomb; that man at the back wanting to go to the toilet nearly got us all shot, and now the planeâs filling up with hijackers.â But then his face clouds over. âThey wonât believe me, will they?â
âI think they might,â I say. âItâll probably be on TV.â
I think of Marni, Dad, and the boys watching the news, maybe seeing footage of the plane landing in Beirut. What will they think? What will they say? Do they know Iâm here? Do they know Iâm still alive?
âAre you thirsty?â Tim asks.
âYes.â
âMe too.â
âI expect theyâll put some more food and drinks on for us soon.â But no food or drinks arrive. Rosemary and Celia continue to accompany passengers up and down to the toilets. There are two at the front and four at the back. Celia is in charge of our side of the plane. She looks nervous when she isnât flashing her fake smile.
Suddenly a baby begins to cry. Itâs a tense, high-pitched wail, of pain or panic. It sounds shocking at first and then becomes unbearable. Itâs recognizable somehow, as though on some level heâs doing what we all want to. I turn to try to see the baby. Theyâre a few rows behind us. The mother is asking Celia whether she thinks heâs teething or has an earache. Celia looks at her as if to say,
How on earth should I know? Youâre the mother.
But she bends down and peers at the baby.
A tall, pale woman in a gingham dress across the aisle and a little way back calls for help. Her daughter has just been sick all over her front. The smell of it filters down the aisle. We hold our noses, pull our tops over our faces, and then giggle hysterically, itâs so awful.
Rosemary comes to mop it up with tissues, disinfectant, and water. I definitely couldnât do her job. Unfortunately the combination of disinfectant and vomit makes the smell worse.
The baby continues to scream, though I think Iâm getting used to it now. I can almost block it out. The Giant lumbers down and escorts the mother and baby to a bulkhead seat at the front, where he says thereâs a bassinet. He still looks as though nothing fazes him, like this hijacking is all in a dayâs work.
Iâm desperate to stretch my legs and am trying hard not to think about how claustrophobic it is in here. At last Celia beckons to David for his turn to go to the toilet. Iâm next!
While heâs away from his seat, I watch the Arab family opposite us. The man wears an immaculate long white robe, a
thawb,
with crisp ironed creases down the sleeves. His wife is entirely in black. I canât see her face, just the edge of a soft gold bangle as she tends to their little son. She has her arm around him while she reads to him. His fat little legs waggle with delight. Seeing her tenderness toward him reminds me of home, and another wave of homesickness washes over me. What Iâd do to be with my