what I guess my mom would have looked like had she lived to old age.
âIs that for us? Please, please tell me thatâs for us.â My grandmother is forever baking cakes or making potato salad, a ham or frying chicken for somebody else. Whenever thereâs a problem in the neighborhood, you can tell because sheâs cooking something for somebody. I hover close as she sits the hot cake pan on a wire rack. The aroma is incredible.
âNo. Itâs for the family down the street. I donât know if you know themâCharlotte Russell.â
âI know Ms. Lottie.â
She nods. âCharlotteâs brother passed last night. Heâs been sick for a while.â
âOh, Iâm sorry to hear that. Did you know him?â
âLord, yes, Laurence and I go way back. We went to school together. He was a good man. He was kind and considerate. No matter what, he always had a pleasant word to say. Just seeing him sometimes would brighten my day.â
âIâm sorry,â I say, not knowing exactly why I should be.
She starts talking again. This time about how she remembered him years ago when they were young together. Shegoes on and on. Stories like this just lose me. So I really am not paying much attention. I have my eye on the cake again. Then she says something about marriage. âWait, so he was like your serious boyfriend a long time ago?â
She smiles and nods. âYes, a very, very long time ago. He was much older than I was and it was way before I knew your grandfather.â
It was weird. I canât seem to imagine my grandmother having a boyfriend. âHow close were you two?â
âVery close,â she says.
I look at her. It wasnât so much what she said, but how she said it. I got the feeling they were more than just friends. âDid my grandfather know about him?â
âOh, yes, he knew,â she says, then laughs. âHe hated the fact that we were still friends even after everything that happened.â
âWhat do you mean even after everything?â
She turns and looks at me. âWhat, do you think youâre the only one whoâs had drama in their life? Missy, I know drama. I know drama very well.â
Okay, this is just getting weird. It is sounding more and more like a love triangle to me. The oven timer sounds and I hurry to stop it. I want to get back to the conversation we were having. âWhat kind of drama?â I ask.
She laughs again. âYou young people think you invented the concept of drama. Lord knows I had some twisting in my day. But thatâs a story for another time. Right now I need to get myself out of here and get this cake delivered.â
I couldnât believe sheâd open the door and then just drop it like that. âGrandmom, you canât just leave me hanging.â
âUse a toothpick, check the cake and see if itâs done.â
I open the oven door. The smell of lemon vanilla hits me in a hot flash in my face. I lean back, but I can still see a smaller pound cake in the oven. I love it when my grandmother cooks lemon pound cake. I grab a toothpick and stick it in the center. It comes out clean. The cakeâs done. I grab oven mitts and take it out and sit it on the other wire rack on the table.
âMan, this smells so good.â My nose is practically on top of the cake. Lemon and vanilla, thereâs nothing like it.
âThat oneâs for you.â She nods.
I smile. Damn, this made my day. âThanks, Grandmom. This is the first good thing to happen all day.â I give her a hug, and I surprise myself, âcause I have a hard time letting go. I just hold on to her.
âHad a bad one, huh, baby?â she asks, gently patting my back.
I nod. Suddenly the thought of everything begins to weigh down on meâno transfer papers, Darien maybe getting out and now Gia. âYeah, something like that,â I say, pulling a chair out.
She stops what