the zoo.
âNo.â B.T.B.âs answer is surly and he colors red underneath his own buzzed blond hair. âJo . . . anna is my friend.â
The petite girl turns on me next. âYouâre even kind of pretty.â
Before I find the right sarcastic response, the blondeflutters her fingers at B.T.B. âSee you around, Barnum.â Then they saunter off, the rest of their group looking and laughing before they drift toward the halls.
âJo . . . anna.â B.T.B. is watching them. âI donât want to hurt your feelings.â
âWhat?â Iâm still staring, anger fuming from my pores.
âI donât want to be your boyfriend.â
This gets my attention. âI, uh.â This is so far from where I thought this time spent with B.T.B. was going. âThatâs okay, B.T.B. Iâm good with being friends only.â
He lets out a tremendous sigh. âThank goodness. I told my sister about my new friend and she said that you must like me, to spend so much time with me. And I told her you do. That we both think elephants are awesome. I even told her that youâre one of the smart kids, like her, but she doesnât always listen to me.â
âSo, do you have a girl you like?â I hand his cards back to him.
He colors again and whispers, âI do. Her name is Marnie. She works at the grocery store. I think sheâs real pretty.â
I punch his arm but donât really hit him. âListen to you, Mr. Stud. Do I ever get to meet this special lady?â
âOnly if you go with me. Or just go to the deli. She works in that department. She finished school last year.â
âWell, if sheâs good by you, sheâs good by me. Because I do like you.â
His trademark smile is back. It matches the bananas on the shirt heâs wearing. âI like you, too, Jo . . . anna.â
I think I can live with that. At least B.T.B. doesnât keep staring at me like Iâve got a fresh Mohawk stretching skyward and am president of the high school freak show. If Dana were here, sheâd tell me to get my ass up and go flirt to mess with the bitch. But Danaâs not here and Iâve promised my dad Iâll be cool, so I simply leave for class, counting down the minutes till another day is scratched through in my year of solitude. I send up a quick internal prayer as I walk through the crowded halls. Dear heavenly Father or Motherââcause, you know, who knows if youâre really a guyâgive me the strength to follow my dadâs wishes and the strength not to kick some dumb country girlâs ass. Sorry. Rear end. Amen. Joanna. For some reason, Iâve always felt the need to author my prayers. Maybe thereâs a filing system up there and I donât want to make it any harder for her or him than it already is.
Sunday morning, Three is a nervous wreck. âReally, Joanna, you donât have to do this. Youth group probably isnât your thing.â
âThree.â She flinches every time I call her thatâhonestly,Iâm kind of surprised she hasnât fought me on itâand even though she may have my dadâs love-struck, got-himself-a-hot-trophy-wife attention right now, sheâs not special. Sheâs just a number in a sequence.
I plop my hand on my hip. âOh, listen to you, so worried about little old me.â
She sighs. âIâm not worried about you, but our pastor and my mother . . .â She folds and unfolds the kitchen towel about six times in six seconds. âSheâs a force.â
Dad walks into the kitchen, still in his robe. âJoanna is her own brand of force.â He kisses his brideâs cheek, then snugs her close, his chin nuzzling into the hollow of her neck and his hand following the curve of her body like heâs forgotten Iâm even here.
Please donât let me see morning wood.
âUm, Dad?â
He pivots toward the coffeepot.
A.L. Jambor, Lenore Butler