calm and order in the frantic chaos of Jack Messengerâs professional life. He and Ivan used to joke that running a music management business was the best on-the-job training a psychotherapist could have. As managers they were part mentor, part friend, part boss, part life coach to some of the most talented, spoiled and rampantly fucked-up individuals on the planet. Life at Jester was equal parts exhausting and rewarding, but it was never dull. Jack loved it. But he also loved leaving it behind in the evenings and retreating behind the walls of his tranquil fortress.
Sonya had designed and decorated the house, and her presence was still everywhere. Jack limited photographs of his wife to the master bedroom. Heâd learned that having them around the house made some people feel uncomfortable, and prompted others to try and talk about his loss, something Jack was congenitally incapable of doing. But you couldnât pick up a cushion or switch on a lamp, without being reminded of Sonyaâs subtle, feminine taste, her love of colour and texture, her
warmth.
That was the one thing Jack Messenger missed most about his wife. The world was a colder place without her.
Flipping open his calendar (Jack was still a pen and paper man where possible), he groaned. Heâd totally forgotten he had a dinner date with Elizabeth tonight. Elizabeth Grey was Jackâs female companion of the moment. Nominally his âgirlfriendâ, though that wasnât a word Jack himself ever used. She was a senior exec at Paramount â smart, funny, independent and kind, as well as beautiful in the classy, understated way that Jack liked: long hair, minimal make-up, slim without being scrawny. There was absolutely nothing wrong with Elizabeth, not one complaint that Jack could level at her. Except the fact that she wasnât Sonya.
Dialling her number, Jack was relieved to get the voicemail. âHi, Liz. Listen honey, Iâm sorry, Iâm gonna have to bail on tonight. Iâm totally wiped after my trip. Iâll call you tomorrow, OK? OK thanks. Sorry. Goodnight.â
He hated how awkward he sounded. Somehow he couldnât shake the feeling that dating at 40 automatically made you a jerk. Switching off his phone so Elizabeth couldnât call him back, he padded into the kitchen for a snack when something caught his eye. The door to his wine cabinet was ajar. No bottles were missing. Everything else was as it should be. But Conception, Jackâs housekeeper, always locked that particular cabinet.
Kendall.
Kendall was curled up on the couch watching
Two and a Half Men
with Lex Abrahams when Jack burst in with a face like fury.
âHave you taken wine from my house while Iâve been gone?â
Kendall didnât look up from the screen. âHi, Kendall, hi, Lex. How are you? Nice to see you again,â she said sarcastically.
âAnswer the question.â
âOf course not! Jesus, so what, Iâm a thief now?â
âNot a thief. You replaced it,â said Jack. âBut you forgot to lock the wine closet afterwards. Whereâs Kevin?â
âHe wasnât feeling too good,â said Kendall blithely. âSo I sent him home and called Lex to come over and save me from my deepest, darkest urges. So far itâs going great.â She raised a glass of Diet Coke in Jackâs direction. âHow was England?â
âDonât change the subject,â snapped Jack. âHow much did you drink?â
âIt wasnât Kendall,â Lex piped up from the couch. âIt was me. Iâm sorry, I, er, I had a few friends over on Friday and I needed some decent vintage stuff, so I, er, I borrowed a couple of bottles. I replaced them at the wine merchantâs today. I must have forgotten to lock the, er, the closet.â
Jack sighed. He liked Lex and was an ardent admirer of his work. But when it came to Kendall, he couldnât be trusted. âDo yourself a