crops and super growth environments designed to produce food in the increasingly harsh conditions of a world plagued with erratic weather. By some standards, Daniel admitted, Jack West was a flake, or at the very least, eccentric and anti-establishment. Heâd found fame in the sixties as an actor, then had a short political career before marrying intoTexas oil money. Heâd inherited an unfathomable fortune when his first wife died.
While he was out looking for a map, Daniel had scoured the Internet via his phone and come up with a New York Times article about Jack West. As I read it, Daniel watched me, his gaze trying to bore through the side of my head and discern my thoughts. There was a sense of the room holding its breath, as if every stick of furniture and stitch of clothing, including Nickâs toys, were lining up, whispering, Toy box or moving box? Which one? Which one?
On television, Owl was talking to Bambi and Thumper about being twitterpated, a hopeless infatuation that causes love-struck young creatures to completely lose their minds in the spring.
âI donât know . . .â I looked across the table at Daniel and thought, Donât go. Donât do this. I wasnât only considering myself, considering us. I was afraid for him, and for Nick. âIt sounds kind of . . . crazy. I mean, youâve got Nick to think about and your job and . . . well . . . health insurance and retirement . . . everything. And what about day care? Nick would have to get used to someone totally new. And then there are your parents, and your brother and his kids. Theyâll be so far away.â I heard air slowly escaping Danielâs lips. I knew I was deflating him, but I couldnât help it. Selfish motives and genuine concern were a mishmash at this point, like multicolored blobs of Play-Doh carelessly pinched together, impossible to separate now. I didnât want Daniel and Nick to go. I couldnât bear the idea of it.
I looked at Nick, tried to imagine him growing up somewhere else. Maybe with someone else.
Drawbacks popped into my mind in rapid succession, and I threw them out like road spikes in Danielâs exit path. âAnd then thereâs all the everyday stuff. I mean, that town looks tiny . Where would you find a good preschool next year? Where would you even live in a town that small?â
Daniel ran a hand through his hair, drew back that little curl that hung over his forehead, making him look like Christopher Reeve in Superman . âThatâs just it, well . . . thatâs one thing. The place is so remote that housing comes with it. The research lab and the crop plots are actually on Westâs ranch, which isâI forget what he saidâten thousand acres, or something, some of it right along the lakeshore. Thereâs housing there for the ranch hands, and one of those houses is part of the job offer. Three bedrooms, two baths.â He looked at me, the expression in his eyes almost pleading with me to breathe gently on the dream, cause it to spark rather than blow out. âNick could grow up in a house, a real house, instead of this dumpy little place. He could run around in the woods, build tree forts, catch frogs and lizards like my brother and I did in Ohio. It was a great way to grow up, you know? As long as we were home by dark, nobody worried about us. Mom could send us out the door in the morning, and all sheâd have to tell us was to watch for snakes and be home by supper. And this place is even better than that. What kid wouldnât like to have a lake on his doorstep?â
I didnât answer immediately. I was still stuck on frogs, lizards, and snakes . Iâd never lived more than a stoneâs throw from neighbors and a mini-mart. Even my parentsâ house in Maryland was sandwiched between other large houses with manicured lawns. The only lakes Iâd ever spent any time