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tears, soaked his T-shirt as he kept me pressed to
him. He refused to let go of me despite my effort to break free. When he pushed
my face harder into his shoulder, I finally realized it was to muffle the sound,
not to comfort me. This version of the boy I used to know, didn’t give a shit
about my pain. I tried to kick him in the groin, but he blocked me. He loosened
his grip just enough to look me in the eye with a hard snap to my shoulders.
    “Stop,
Ellia, I don’t have time for this shit, not nearly enough to explain everything
to you. Calm down and be quiet, right now!” He growled the words between
clenched teeth while his fingers dug into my upper arms. I complied and settled
myself, not trusting what he might do if I did not obey.
    “Listen,
I am not the bad guy, okay? I’m an undercover agent with the FBI, and I’ve
worked my ass off on this case. I have a choice, here, extract you now and blow
my cover, or let it play out a little longer. My job is to gather enough
evidence to nail Dacks and his bosses. You don’t understand how big this
situation is, Ellia, but it goes well beyond that fat piece of shit and his
psycho attack dog, Gordon. It’s much bigger than your dad, too. Unfortunately
for you, he is the star of this show right at the moment. Dacks wasn’t lying
when he said your father was a dirty cop, but I can’t explain it right now—no
time. Tell me what you want me to do. Can you hang on longer? My people are
working hard to find your father, and when they do, this will all be over for
you. If you can’t, or won’t, continue I’ll take you out of here right this
second. I promise you, Ellia, Gordon will pay for every hurt he has laid upon
you. You’ll never realize how sorry I am for having to play along and hit you.
I knocked you out on purpose, to put an end to the beating, but god I hated
putting my hands on you that way. They’ll kill me without a second thought if
they suspect anything.  I haven’t been with their organization long enough to
have much pull or trust. You need to understand, I am a different person than
the one you used to know when we were kids, but I swear you can trust me. I would
never hurt you by choice … ever, but I can’t protect you if I am dead.”
    My
mind was still swirling with emotions, and amidst it all, relief he was alive,
surfaced above all the rest, and I threw my arms around him.  “I can’t believe
you are alive, Cade. I just can’t believe it.”  The memories and feelings of
the past battled with the fury I felt for what he had done to me.
    He
gently pushed me away from him, not returning the embrace. “I promise I will
tell you everything, Ellia, but I need an answer from you right now--right this
minute. Gordon will be back at any second. I hate that shit had to go down this
way. I wanted to tell you under different circumstances, but in this moment,
you have to tell me what to do.”
    “I
don’t know what to say, my head is spinning. There is so much information to
grasp, I don’t know where to begin. I have so damn many questions …” He shifted
his weight and released my shoulders while expelling an agitated sigh. He
didn’t want to deal with the past, he just wanted me to answer him. I felt
defeated and conflicted, but in the end, my residual love for him won. “If it’s
what you want … If it’s what you think I should do, then I will.  I don’t
understand the reasons, and I don’t understand you; but if it’s what you want,
then I will do it. I owe you that much.” He never realized how much I blamed
myself for the bullets he took.
    “Owe
me?  Why would you owe me anything?”
    Gordon
yelled for Donny before I could tell him what I meant.  “I have to go.” He
grabbed my arm as he leaned down to my face, almost nose to nose, to reiterate
his point. “Do not blow my cover, Ellia, both of our lives depend on it now.”
He put the ski mask back over his face. “Hang tough a little longer. The
greater good will