you, too. Did Mom and Dad put you up to this?â She shook her head. âLizzie?â Again. She opened her mouth but I barreled through. âWell, either way, seriously, Iâm super fine and I will continue to be super fine. Everyone constantly asking me about whether Iâm fine isnât going to make me any more fine than I already am because I. Am. Fine.â
Mary looked at me. I waited for her to shrug, but she didnât.
âOkay.â
âOkay?â She nodded, still not looking away from me. âOkay.â
âIâve got some spreadsheets I want to set up for Lizzie, so Iâm gonna get started on that.â
âSeriously? Lizzie just left a couple of hours agoâsheâs probably not even there yet.â
âStill. She should have them before she meets with investors again.â Mary got up and made her way back to the door. âââNight, Lydia.â
âââNight,â I called as the door shut behind her.
Part of me knows it wasnât easy for Mary to make that kind of offer. But I just canât anymore.
I looked at the clock on my phone and realized I still had some time to kill before I could justify attempting to sleep. So I dragged myself off my bed, over to the computer on my desk, and sat in the not-as-comfortable-as-Iâd-have-liked chair I snagged from Lizzieâs room after she left. I tapped the mouse to wake up the screen so I could scroll through my email and found the latest one from Central Bay College.
It came in last Friday. And when I saw the subject header, CENTRAL BAY COLLEGE FALL SEMESTER APPLICANT , I thought, Oh! Is this it? My formal acceptance? Will my student ID and cafeteria pass be attached?
Nope.
Dear Miss Bennetâ
We received your transcripts and financial aid information, so thank you. However, we discovered part of your application was missing.
Please complete the attached forms and return to the admissions office byâ
Immediately, Iâd checked the document, slightly freaked that Iâd somehow missed part of the application. Slowly my heart ratereturned to normal. It wasnât so bad. It was just a form asking for my name, social, a lot of the same stuff on my other forms. The only new things they wanted were two letters of recommendation (yeesh) and an essay.
If Maryâs working tonight, so can I , I decided. Since Friday, sheâd been pushing me to get this done before classes start, anyway. So I pulled out the essay questions and pasted them into a blank document.
Recount an incident or time when you experienced failure. How did it affect you? What lessons did you learn? What would you do differently now?
My cursor blinked back at me.
Now that I think about it, I have a couple of weeks to work on this. Itâs way more important that I get plenty of rest for my first day of school tomorrow.
Good night.
Lydia the Counselorâs Fantastically Awesome and Insightful Questions for Lydia the Traumatized Young Woman
1. Barring the counselor/counseled relationship, would you do me? Would I do you?
2. Is it still as lame to start a movie with therapy as it is to end it that way?
3. How are you so awesome?
4. What do you see yourself doing in five years?
5. In ten years?
6. In a hundred years?
7. Why did you choose psychology as your focus?
8. Where do you think studying psychology will lead you?
9. Why is it important that you go to where that is?
10. Who will you meet there, if anyone?
11. Why canât you just stay home? Or why donât you want to?
12. Where is everyone else going?
13. If youâre so awesome, why do you still feel so alone?
Chapter Seven
I NTRO TO P SYCHOLOGY
I donât think Iâve ever been as simultaneously nervous and excited as I was the morning I started kindergarten. Mom didnât work, so I never did preschool or day care or anything like that. Kindergarten was really and
Lisl Fair, Ismedy Prasetya