truly my first day of school.
I threw up into my bowl of Trix.
Correction: I threw up the Trix I had just eaten back into the nearly empty bowl. Which meant I literally threw up rainbows.
Thatâs how I felt when I woke up for my last first day ofcommunity college. Simultaneously so nervous and so excited that I thought rainbows could come erupting out of my mouth at any moment.
Just to be safe, I skipped breakfast and made it to my Intro to Psych lecture by 8:42 a.m. Eighteen minutes to spare. I was the second person in the room; even the professor ( Professor Latham , I reminded myself, fully committed to this Prepared Student persona) wasnât there yet.
The lecture hall is one of the bigger rooms the school has, probably about eighty seats. Most of the classrooms fit twenty or thirty at most. Small class size is touted as one of the benefits to attending our community college. Seriously, itâs all over the brochures. And itâs something I used to loveânot because we got more âteacher-student attentionâ (and ew, that sounds super gross now that I say it), but because you know everyone and everyone knows you. And, yeah, okay, it was easier to get everyone to pay attention to youâI wonât deny it! Attention is nice. Or it can be.
But thatâs also one of the reasons coming back last semester was so difficult. Now, Iâm glad to be taking a psychology class, but Iâm also glad it will be a little easier to just blend in.
I pulled my blue spiral and a fountain pen out of my bag, trying to fill the silence of the room. Opening up to the front cover, I carefully printed:
INTRO TO PSYCHOLOGY, SUMMER 2013
Most of my notebooks for my previous classes have been filled up with whatever notes were on the board or PowerPoint, and doodles. Lots of doodles. Iâve gotten pretty fantastic at drawing spirally things that bleed into more spirally things. Too bad thatâs not something you can make a career of.
âCool pen.â
I raised my head to see the only person who beat me into class that morning.
A guy. A not unattractive guy. Maybe even bordering on, like, super cute and possibly even handsome.
Hey, I can take academia seriously, but I still have eyes.
He was turned around in his seat, looking up at me from a couple of rows ahead. Should I be sitting closer to the front? Would that show Professor Latham a dedication to the subject?
âThanks,â I said, looking down at my dadâs fountain pen. I stole it off his deskâitâs the most serious pen I know of. Serious pen for a serious student.
âDid you get the time wrong, too?â
âHuh? Oh, no,â I replied. âI just . . . wanted a good seat.â
âCool.â He nodded. âI screwed up and thought classes started an hour ago.â
He had a half smile. So I half-smiled back.
âIâm new. Just fulfilling some requirements so I can change majors at my regular school.â
âMakes sense,â I said.
âWhat about you?â
âI . . .â was saved by a bunch of other people filing into the classroom. As the newcomers settled into their seats, scattering, chatting, the new guy kept his chair turned my way.
âIâm Cody,â he said. âWould it be too soon to ask for your number?â
He must have seen my internal freak-out, because he held up his hands immediately. âIâm not hitting on you, I swear.â
âJust so you know, when you have to tell people youâre not hitting on them, itâs kind of a given that youâre hitting on them,â I replied.
âYouâre the first person Iâve met, and you seem to know what youâre doing,â he said. I admit, I might have blushed a little. I guess this commitment to academia thing was really working for me. âIt would be just in case one of us misses a class, or if we want to compare notes.â He pulled out his phone.