again. Well, there was no other way. In a few years, probably less, the whole planet would go up with a blinding flash. This was the only way out. Escaping, starting all over again with a few people on a new planet.
He stared at the reflection.
âThereâs no other way,â he said.
He glanced around the bedroom. Goodbye, this part of my life. Turning off the lamp was like turning off a light in his mind. He closed the door gently behind him and slid his fingers off the worn handle.
His son and daughter were going down the ramp. They were talking in mysterious whispers. He shook his head in slight amusement.
His wife waited for him. They went down together, holding hands.
âIâm not afraid, darling,â she said. âItâll be all right.â
âSure,â he said. âSure it will.â
They all went in to eat. He sat down with his children. His wife
poured out juice for them. Then she went to get the food.
âHelp your mother, doll,â he told his daughter. She got up.
âPretty soon, haah, pop?â his son said. âPretty soon, haah?â
âTake it easy,â he cautioned. âRemember what I told you. If you say a word of it to anybody Iâll have to leave you behind.â
A dish shattered on the floor. He darted a glance at his wife. She was staring at him, her lips trembling.
She averted her eyes and bent down. She fumbled at the pieces, picked up a few. Then she dropped them all, stood up and pushed them against the wall with her shoe.
âAs if it mattered,â she said nervously. âAs if it mattered whether the place is clean or not.â
The children were watching her in surprise.
âWhat is it?â asked the daughter.
âNothing, darling, nothing,â she said. âIâm just nervous. Go back to the table. Drink your juice. We have to eat quickly. The neighbors will be here soon.â
âPop, why are the neighbors coming with us?â asked his son.
âBecause,â he said vaguely, âthey want to. Now forget it. Donât talk about it so much.â
The room was quiet. His wife brought their food and set it down. Only her footsteps broke the silence. The children kept glancing at each other, at their father. He kept his eyes on the plate. The food tasted flat and thick in his mouth and he felt his heart thudding against the wall of his chest. Last day. This is the last day.
âYouâd better eat,â he told his wife.
She sat down to eat. As she lifted the eating utensil the door buzzer sounded. The utensil skidded out of her nerveless fingers and clattered on the floor. He reached out quickly and put his hand on hers.
âAll right, darling,â he said. âItâs all right.â He turned to the children. âGo answer the door,â he told them.
âBoth of us?â his daughter asked.
âBoth of you.â
âBut â¦â
âDo as I say.â
They slid off their chairs and left the room, glancing back at their parents.
When the sliding door shut off their view, he turned back to his wife. Her face was pale and tight; she had her lips pressed together.
âDarling, please,â he said. âPlease. You know I wouldnât take you if I wasnât sure it was safe. You know how many times Iâve flown the ship before. And I know just where weâre going. Itâs safe. Believe me itâs safe.â
She pressed his hand against her cheek. She closed her eyes and large tears ran out under her lids and down her cheeks.
âItâs not that so m-much,â she said. âItâs just ⦠leaving, never coming back. Weâve been here all our lives. It isnât like ⦠like moving. We canât come back. Ever.â
âListen, darling,â his voice was tense and hurried. âYou know as well as I do. In a matter of years, maybe less, thereâs going to be another war, a terrible one. There wonât