Daddy?
It does dreadful things to your liver.
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Wednesday
Dear Daddy-Long-Legs,
Iâve changed my name.
Iâm still âJerushaâ in the catalogue, but Iâm âJudyâ every place else. Itâs sort of too bad, isnât it, to have to give yourself the only pet name you ever had? I didnât quite make up the Judy though. Thatâs what Freddie Perkins used to call me before he could talk plain.
I wish Mrs. Lippett would use a little more ingenuity about choosing babiesâ names. She gets the last names out of the telephone bookâyouâll find Abbott on the first pageâand she picks the Christian names up anywhere; she got Jerusha from a tombstone. Iâve always hated it; but I rather like Judy. Itâs such a silly name. It belongs to the kind of girl Iâm notâa sweet little blue-eyed thing, petted and spoiled by all the family, who romps her way through life without any cares. Wouldnât it be nice to be like that? Whatever faults I may have, no one can ever accuse me of having been spoiled by my family! But itâs sort of fun to pretend Iâve been. In the future please always address me as Judy.
Do you want to know something? I have three pairs of kid gloves. Iâve had kid mittens before from the Christmas tree, but never real kid gloves with five fingers. I take them out and try them on every little while. Itâs all I can do not to wear them to classes.
(Dinner bell. Good-by.)
Friday.
What do you think, Daddy? The English instructor said that my last paper shows an unusual amount of originality. She did, truly. Those were her words. It doesnât seem possible, does it, considering the eighteen years of training that Iâve had? The aim of the John Grier Home (as you doubtless know and heartily approve of) is to turn the ninety-seven orphans into ninety-seven twins.
The unusual artistic ability which I exhibit, was developed at an early age through drawing chalk pictures of Mrs. Lippett on the woodshed door.
I hope that I donât hurt your feelings when I criticize the home of my youth? But you have the upper hand, you know, for if I become too impertinent, you can always stop payment on your checks. That isnât a very polite thing to sayâbut you canât expect me to have any manners; a foundling asylum isnât a young ladiesâ finishing school.
You know, Daddy, it isnât the work that is going to be hard in college. Itâs the play. Half the time I donât know what the girls are talking about; their jokes seem to relate to a past that every one but me has shared. Iâm a foreigner in the world and I donât understand the language. Itâs a miserable feeling. Iâve had it all my life. At the high school the girls would stand in groups and just look at me. I was queer and different and everybody knew it. I could feel âJohn Grier Homeâ written on my face. And then a few charitable ones would make a point of coming up and saying something polite. I hated every one of themâ the charitable ones most of all.
Nobody here knows that I was brought up in an asylum. I told Sallie McBride that my mother and father were dead, and that a kind old gentleman was sending me to collegeâwhich is entirely true so far as it goes. I donât want you to think I am a coward, but I do want to be like the other girls, and that Dreadful Home looming over my childhood is the one great big difference. If I can turn my back on that and shut out the remembrance, I think I might be just as desirable as any other girl. I donât believe thereâs any real, underneath difference, do you?
Anyway, Sallie McBride likes me!
Yours ever,
JUDY ABBOTT.
(NÃE JERUSHA.)
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Saturday morning.
Iâve just been reading this letter over and it sounds pretty uncheerful. But canât you guess that I have a special topic due Monday morning and a review in geometry and