hypnotizing and sinful
I had to fuck her. Then I fucked her again after she brought me back home. I watched
that little shit play grab ass with my girl. I didn’t like it, but she pushed him
away with a face smothered in pure disgust, so I let it be. I let it be, because I
was hungry for her. I needed her and I knew if I killed that little cowboy puke, Lil
would have made me work for it. I wasn’t in the mood to work for it, so I was good,
got her home and fucked her. I fucked her, and because I felt guilty, I had a drink.
Then I felt guilty for leaving her in bed so I fucked her again.
Thinking about Lil last night, my cock starts to throb painfully. She was so goddamn
perfect bent over that table for me, letting me fuck her the only way I can anymore.
Taking everything from her like I always do. I can see that long dark hair laying
down her back, soft and smooth, begging to be wrapped around my hand, her legs shaking
and her body shivering against mine as I sink into her over and over again. Her pussy
is tight and warm, gripping the fuck out of my dick as I pound into her balls deep.
She screams, moans and begs for me. No matter how many times, how many ways, or where
I fuck her, it’s like the first time. So fucking good it makes my balls ache and my
toes curl just thinking about it. It makes me want to find her, throw her down, and
sink my dick into her again.
Walking into the kitchen, I hear female voices followed by Lil’s laugh. That’s the
easy going, soft laugh that I never get from her anymore.
“How you doin’ darlin’?” That’d be Kiki. I hear Lil sigh, and that sigh says more
than words. That’s a sad, tired sigh. I shouldn’t listen because I don’t wanna to
hear a damn thing these bitches have to say about me or my fuckin’ relationship. They’ll
say shit they don’t know a goddamn thing about.
“I’m alright.” Lil tries to sound fine, but it’s there in her voice.
“You don’t sound alright, baby. He still not being the man he needs to be for ya?”
I wait for the shit Lil’s about to spill about me. I know she wants to.
“We’ll be okay.” Nothing. Shit is falling down around her and she still pretends that
shit’s okay. Even though everyone, including me, can see it and feel it, she won’t
say a word against me. She lets that shit sit and eat away at her, but I let her deal
with it all.
“You ain’t got to pretend with me baby. I know, hell, we all know he’s lost his ever
lovin’ mind.” Fucking Kiki talking about shit she knows nothing about. She’s recently
started giving me hell, puttin’ her nose in our business. She’s dumb as shit if she
thinks her opinion matters.
“Things are strained. He’s had a lot to deal with, but it’ll get better,” Lil says
softly.
“Strained?” Kiki repeats. I can hear her disbelief. I know they care about Lil, but
these bitches thrive off drama.
“Yes, strained. It fuckin’ sucks, but we’ll work through it.” The lack of conviction
in Lil’s words hurt. I know she’s just spitting shit to satisfy these nosy bitches.
She says whatever she thinks they need to hear from her, and I know she doesn’t believe
a goddamn word of it herself.
“Personally I’d scrape him off,” Mary adds in. Fucking bitches trying to turn my Old
Lady away from me. Fuck these stupid bitches.
“I can’t.”
“Why not? He’s not treatin’ you the way he should, then let him go. Haven’t you had
enough of his shit? You’re the one who’s been through all the shit, not him. He needs
to let go and get the fuck over it. Your ass is here, alive. He needs to take advantage
of that instead of blaming you for him feeling like a fuck up.” I’ve never wanted
to strangle Mary as much as I do right now.
“Don’t you get it? I love him, that’s why.”
“Oh, I don’t know Lil. I