âWish three,â she whispered, while plugging her fingers into her ears. âHave no mean brothers for my daughter.â
âHey brat! Iâm talking to you,â he persisted. âDid Mom say you could eat those cookies before dinner? Did she? Iâm talking to you! Answer me!â
âIâm telling,â said her other brother. And then they sing-songed in unison âIâm telling, Iâm tellingâ¦â
But Joy was no longer threatened by their âtellingâ because by the time they could tell, it was way past their bedtime and they were fast asleep. Joy would force herself to stay awake, staring at the cracks in the ceiling that formed the shape of an elephantâs trunk, waiting until Alice, opened the door. Thatâs when Joy squeezed her eyes shut, mimicking sleep as Alice bent down to kiss her forehead. The scent of Cotyâs Sweet Earth lingered in Joyâs nostrils long after her mother had left the room.
Saturdays were special because at her fatherâs insistence, Joy was always included in the neighborhood game of âRed light, Green light.â When it came to Red light, Green light, Joy may have been chubby, but
man
she could hold a locked pose, suspending one limb in the air like a cat burglar caught in a flashlight shadow. When her brother said âGreen light!â to go, she could feel the finish line of his left arm and breathlessly tapped him on the shoulder. But then he turned to her, narrowed his eyes and announced, âNo way youâre it. I saw you move on that last red light.â
âDid not!â she insisted.
âDid too!â
âDid not!â
âGo back to the beginning of the line Fatty Patty.â
âWill not!â
âThen youâre out for good. Go home, Fatty Patty.â
And then the other kids chimed in with âFatty Pattyâ too. Joy hung her head low and went back to the starting point. âIâm not Fatty Patty,â sheâd murmur under her breath. My name is Joy.â
âI know that,â whispered Georgey Pfeifer, âI saw you didnât move. You
didnât
move.â
âI know,â said Joy, grateful for just an ounce of validation.
âRed Rover, Red Rover sendâ¦â anybody but Joy over. After a while, never chosen, she would slink back to her house. Georgey would call out âHey Joy, where ya going?â but she pretended not to hear, instead heading straight for the kitchen. Nothing that a bag of Chips Ahoy cookies or a scoop of Harlequin ice cream couldnât cureâ¦
It was from the pantry, during another snack-food binge, that Joy heard the slam of the backdoor screen and the sound of her mother dropping car keys on the counter. Joy rose from the floor and glanced out to see Alice facing the cupboard. Mechanically, her mother grabbed the scouring pad and flipped up the faucet handle. She scrubbed madly at the casserole dish crusted with last nightâs potatoes au gratin.
âMommy? Mommy, youâre home!â But Alice didnât turn around. As Joy approached her motherâs side, she just scrubbed even harder. âMommy? Mommy, whatâs wrong?â
Alice dropped the soapy dishâspelled with a âyâ not an âey,â thought Joy despite herselfâand watched her mother grip the side of the curling linoleum counter.
âYou go outside and play, honey.â said Alice.
âBut theyâre mean.â said Joy, circling around to see tears streaming down Aliceâs face.
Joy sat on the edge of the hospital bed watching a clear tube dripping life into her fatherâs arm. Her brothers were lined against the drab hospital wall in a long row of silence. She knew it was serious.
âYour father was doing a very brave thing,â explained Alice rubbing at her husbandâs head. âHe was trying to protect that woman.â
A chaos of questions flooded the room. âWhen