so easily turned the conversation away from the flowers.
âWeâll get it before our next party, for sure,â Arlene said.
As we settled in for the eveningâArlene picked off half her pepperonis and I ate them, just like we always didâI almost did forget about the flowers and the fact that somehow word had gotten out. Even though she was the only person who knew why I got them, I told myself that if she had slipped and told someone, she would have told me. I shouldnât doubther. I shouldnât even question herâthat would be borderline insulting, like I was questioning her friendship. Sure, she hadnât always been the greatest at keeping secrets, but with a juicy one this big, she wouldnât betray me.
When Haden Prescott won the worst actress Razzie, Arlene said, âNext stop, reality TV!â
I fell asleep that night thinking about Haden and wondering if she would win the Academy Award. She was a long shotâthe other actresses she was up against had all been nominated before. But maybe, I thought, drifting off, maybe she would surprise us all.
The next day we about burned our eyes out watching all the preshow stuff. E! did a whole thing on the nominees, where they had started, the TV shows theyâd done, the movies theyâd made. Although they mentioned Hadenâs Razzie-nominated movies, they never once said the words Golden Raspberry Award .
âHow could they not mention that?â I asked.
Arlene popped a cherry sour ball in her mouth and said, ââCause. These awards are about respect. They wouldnât give the Razzies the satisfaction of mentioning them in the same breath as the Academy Awards.â
As pictures of Haden flashed on the screen, the voice-over said, âSheâs struggled in Hollywood for years for the chance to be taken seriously as an actress, but with bit roles and question a ble movies, her journey has been an uphill battle. But Haden has endured and, with The Silent Widow, has proven herself as worthy an actress as the other women in her category.â
The entertainment-news guy said to the camera: âYes, weâre certainly rooting for her to win, but the truth is, Haden Prescott is already a winner, just by being nominated. Sheâs already landed roles in films from such directors as Nicolas Capicaccio and Stephen Allman. It seems that, as an actress, Ms. Prescott has finally come into her own.â
When the awards finally began, I rooted for Haden. She looked beautiful in her golden sequined gown, all poised and elegant. Nothing of the Satan-spawned hottie remained in the woman who sat in the plush red velvet seats of the Kodak Theatre in Hollywood.
âI canât believe she went from the D-list to an Academy Award nominee just like that.â I snapped my fingers for emphasis.
âI know,â Arlene said. âIt just goes to show that any loser can turn it around. She went from reject to royalty in just a couple of months.â
Even though Haden didnât win, I still felt that what Arlene said was true: Anyone can turn it around. Just like that. Maybe even me.
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As I walked through Bowieâs front doors on Monday morning, I felt sick to my stomach, and it wasnât because of cramps,which had mostly passed, thank goodness. I hoped with all hope that everyone would have forgotten about the flowers. I wasnât sure that I had the energy to keep dodging comments about who sent them or if I needed more feminine products. I tried to remember how Iâd felt hanging out with Arlene all weekendâhow tight our friendship was, and how what Kirstie heard didnât make sense.
Before first period, Kirstie appeared next to my locker as I spun the combination. âWhy didnât you call me back?â
I put my messenger bag in my locker and took out my English book and notebook. With everyone who passed meâthe halls were full of studentsâI hoped no one would say