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faultless. I needed to put him first before my needs…” My throat constricted, thinking about the searing pain I had endured after walking away from him. “I realized that our own best interest doesn’t necessarily solve anything. Sometimes it turns out for the worst and backfires. A miniscule problem could grow into something bigger, something that’s hard to control.” I had bit off more than I could chew. Not only guilt was festering me into ruins, thinking about the baby placed an acrid, vile taste in my mouth.
    “Love makes us do crazy things. I mean , look at Mighty Knightly and all the shit he had to pull off to be with Sienna. But one thing stood out, and that’s the only thing we should learn, which is never to fucking give up, Lucy. I look at you and I already see defeat. What happened to your backbone? You took part in this mess, at least bitch up and be there for the man you’ve fucked over. He needs you.”
    “I don’t know…”
    “I’m not asking you to be back with him. All I’m asking is for you to show your face. You don’t even have to say anything. Just be around, show that you care, even if it’s killing you inside.”
    Could I do that? Could I stomach seeing the hate in his eyes?
    “Toby might not be too pleased about that.”
    “Trust me on this ; that man is nuts and bolts loony for you.”
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    “Lucy?”
    I looked up and clashed eyes with him.
    “Would you like to have dinner with me?”
    Was he really asking me this or was I dreaming?
    For weeks , I had secretly lusted after him, dropping subtle hints that I was more than interested, but he hadn’t taken the bait. Last week, I had been convinced that he saw me just as a friend from school. After all, he and Blake Knightly were sought after by all of the women in our school and he could have a pick of whoever took his interest.
    My crushed hope was now alive and kicking as I blinked back a few times, considering his question.
    “Uh, sure.” Fuck. I sounded downright awful. I hoped he wouldn’t change his mind. I wouldn’t recover from it. I was sure of it.
    He looked around the crowded library before glancing down at me again, smiling his mega-watt smile. “Mind if I take you away right now?”
    “You want to have dinner… now?” I gulped some much needed air. I better not hyperventilate; it was only a dinner invitation, not him asking me if I wanted a quick shag against the dusty bookshelves…
    Though if he had outright asked me that, I would have willingly obliged.
    “If it’s too much , we could do it tomorrow night?” he unsurely added with a teasing tone.
    I hardly doubt I’d survive a night berating myself if I declined.
    “Right now is perfectly good.” I immediately got up and neatly took care of my things, placing them inside my tote. Nervously, I gave him a quick glance before he showed us out the library. When we emerged from the building, the sky was dark and the air a tad chilly, but considering how I was a ball of heat next to this man, my cotton long-sleeved black top was enough.
    “What do you feel like having tonight?”
    You , my mind blurted out, making me inwardly blanch at my wayward thoughts. For fuck’s sake, I needed to clear my head or I would ruin this one chance I had with him. And God forbid if I ever did.
    “Chinese sounds good.”
    He grinned. “Is that all you fancy?”
    Was th at a trick question? It had to be. “For the moment, I suppose it is.”
    “I like how your cheeks glow pink when you lie a tad,” he mused, blatantly teasing me.
    My fuck, did he know about how I felt about him?
    I reddened some more as I followed him to his parked Audi. He gallantly opened the door for me, but before I slid inside, he took me by the hand then dipped his head and whispered into my ear, “Breathe, Luce. I won’t bite unless you let me.”
    I nervously licked my lip s, completely out of my depth as I stared into his eyes, feeling alive for the very first time in my life.
    Something had