Angelina’s mind once more. This was the first time in three years she had thought of them, the guilt she was feeling tormenting her tortured heart.
Angelina sat in her window box, looking out into the darkness of her garden, thoughts of Daniel clouding her confused mind. They had been on their way to his parent’s house on that fateful night; they were so happy and could not wait to share their news about the engagement. Daniel had bought her a beautiful diamond solitaire ring and proposed to her over dinner at their favourite restaurant the night before. She was in love with him and was looking forward to spending the rest of her life with him. She woke up in hospital the following day with Lucy by her side and tears in her eyes. She cried continually for days when she was informed of Daniel’s fate. It was like a bad dream she couldn’t wake up from.
Angelina’s hand reached up to her scar, stroking it gently as she remembered sadly the night her life changed forever. Her scar was the result of stitches in her eyebrow, and it served as a permanent reminder of what she had lost on that dreadful night, one that had started out full of hopes and dreams. Their life was mapped out and they were considering buying a new house. They had registered with an estate agents a few days before for a three-bedroomed house on the outskirts of Kendal.
She caught a tear as it escaped down her face. “Oh Daniel, I feel so confused right now, I wish you could tell me what to do. I feel like I am betraying us. Am I, Daniel, am I betraying what we had?” She sat in solitary silence for over an hour before she was startled by her telephone ringing.
“ Hello.”
“ Angelina, it’s Lucy. Well then, how did it go with Joshua?”
Angelina was not sure what to say. Lucy was full of child-like excitement as always and her voice was full of optimism.
“It was a lovely night, Lucy. Joshua is a lovely man, but to be honest I am not sure I’m ready for another relationship. I feel guilty, like I am betraying Daniel somehow. I'm not sure I can do this, Lucy.”
There was a long pause before Lucy responded to her friend.
“Angelina, you can’t think like this, you’re not betraying Daniel. He would want you to be happy, you know he would. He wouldn’t want you to live your life alone and sad. That’s the very last thing he would want for you. Do you like Joshua?”
“ Yes, yes I do, a lot. That’s the problem. I was not expecting to feel like this again, Lucy, and it scares me, it scares the hell out of me. He is a soldier, Lucy, he is home for just two weeks and then he will be off God knows where and for God knows how long. I just feel like I am setting myself up for a fall.” Angelina could not stop herself from crying; her heart was hurting and all her old memories taking poll position at the forefront of her mind. Her memories of Daniel came flooding in, not leaving much space for anyone else. The guilt she felt was taking over and her conscience was tugging at her heart.
“ Right then, I am coming over. We need to talk more about this, Angelina, and I won’t take no for an answer. See you in ten minutes.” And with that, Lucy rang off, leaving Angelina hanging.
True to her word, a few minutes later, Lucy was hammering on the door. Angelina opened the door and Lucy wrapped her warm arms around her friend. “Oh baby, what am I going to do with you? You are such a lost soul and it’s my intention to find you again and bring you back to life.” Angelina smiled and wondered how she had been so lucky to have such a wonderful friend grace her life. She really didn't know what she would do without her.
“ Now, do you have any wine in that sorry looking fridge of yours?”
Nodding her head, Angelina reached for two wine glasses out of the cupboard and poured them both a large rosé. They sat down on the small sofa and clinked their glasses. “To special friends.” Lucy smiled.
“ To special friends,” repeated