finally letting him take her hand.
He held her fingers firmly, meeting her eyes.
“We’re dealing with two factors. A complicated past, and a complicated present. There is no need to complicate the future,” he reminded us.
“Hmm,” I deadpanned, sitting back and stretching my legs out. “I’m not sure that I take you seriously.”
“ Keaton, ” Vivian hissed, sitting back in her seat as the doctor let go of her hand.
“T ell me why, Keaton,” Dr. Grey encouraged.
“I need someone who knows how to make everything perfect for the next nine months. In here,” I pointed at Vivian’s stomach, and then her head. “Not up here. If I wanted the fucking Dalai Lama, I’d have called him.”
Vivian glared at me. “ Really? ” she demanded, obviously embarrassed.
Dr. Grey laughed, a hearty chuckle that eased the tension in the room. “ Mind and body. The two are connected. Her stress level, and the baby’s health. What I’m proposing is that we do our best to find even ground, so that Vivian can relax and enjoy the way this child is going to change her life.”
I glanced at Vivian, and she countered with a silencing glare.
“Fair enough,” I said, finally, turning back to Dr. Grey. “Now, when do I get to see my baby?”
The Crying Game
V
Keaton had a list of questions, many of which I already knew the answer to, but I let Dr. Grey talk for as long as possible to hold off the inevitable.
Bloodwork. Needles.
I remembered to lie down on the table while they drew the necessary number of vials, and Keaton let me grip his hand.
“Do you want me to distract you?”
“Yes,” I forced in a quick breath.
“Okay.” He lifted his eyes to the phlebotomist, smiling that excruciatingly charming smile of his. “How much would it cost for you to pierce her ears while we’re here?”
The woman narrowed her eyes, and I dropped my jaw. “Keaton!”
“You’ll need a dermatologist,” the technician replied, obviously irritated as she continued to switch vials from the needle jabbing me in the arm.
“So, not some uneducated mall employee?” Keaton prodded, repeating my words from our conversation in the Ferrari.
“Right.”
“I told you so,” I forced, exhaling sharply as she removed the needle. He only grinned my way, and the other nurse returned to take us in for the exam and ultrasound.
Keaton moved behind me with the paper gown, helping me pull the sundress over my head. I jumped as his mouth lowered to my shoulder for a fleeting moment. He moved around to face me, drawing his kiss over my neck as he circled slowly.
“ Only once. ” His breath was hot on my skin, and I closed my eyes. “We only made love that one time.” His hand splayed over my stomach, his touch warm through the paper gown, lingering before he moved to cup my face in his hands. “I must have done something good, kiddo. I’ve never felt blessed before. I used to laugh at that word. Now, I can’t think of any other way to describe this love.”
“ Keaton ,” I whispered. I couldn’t answer him. I didn’t possess the words to tell him what was happening inside of my heart.
He took a shaking breath, moving to tie the gown, his fingers drawing over my bare back.
The knock at the door startled us both. The doctor bustled in with a hearty smile, and in minutes I was up on the table, legs spread, and trying not to blush. Keaton stayed near my head, watching everything that was happening with a nervous smile.
“ What?” I demanded, wincing as the doctor examined me.
“Nothing. Everything. I’m fascinated. My baby’s in there. I can’t wrap my head around it.”
I couldn’t resist a smile if I wanted to. Holding my hand out to him, I felt him grip my fingers securely.
“I understand,” I assured him, turning toward the computer screen.
I almost didn’t believe it was real.
The whooshing of the ultrasound machine hypnotized us both.
Dr. Grey shifted the internal wand slightly, and I smoothed the paper