gown over my knees, trying to ascertain some modesty.
Keaton rested one hand on my shoulder, the other hand holding mine.
“Right… there,” the doctor murmured, tapping the keyboard to freeze a series of screen shots.
Keaton’s soft exhale near my ear sounded like God , and I couldn’t turn away from the screen.
“ Everything looks great. I’ll call you tomorrow with the results of your bloodwork. We’ll set the due date for March thirtieth. I know I answered many of your questions earlier, but do you have any more that you can think of?” Dr. Grey encouraged as he pulled the wand away.
H is nurse stepped forward with my clothes, explaining how I could clean up and she’d help if I needed anything.
“I will,” Keaton promised. “I just can’t… think right now.”
Dr. Grey washed and dried his hands, nodding and reaching to pat Keaton’s shoulder. “Call me anytime, Keaton. Vivian, relax. Be filled with joy. Alright?”
I nodded, kind of loving Dr. Grey’s introspective personality.
When the heavy door clasped shut, I lay still, staring at the monitor.
“V?”
The bridge of my nose burned, and my eyes watered.
I remembered staring at that shadowy circle almost two years ago, with Matthew at my side. He’d lowered his mouth to my ear, w hispering softly. “This is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.”
My thighs were sticky from the gel, and I wanted privacy.
I was going to lose my shit any second.
I turned to Keaton quickly, my chin quivering, and he bobbed his eyebrows.
“We have the whole room to ourselves.” He reached for the light switch, lowering the dimmer. “I see you’ve slipped into that sexy dress I bought you. I have a feeling it’ll be easy to tear right off… but the paper cuts may sting a little.”
“ Keaton ,” I protested, exhaling a tearful laugh.
He went into full swagger as he made his way over to me. “Vivian,” he answered, his voice rumbling low from his chest. “This state-of-the-art exam room cost about two grand, and only rents by the hour. We have about five minutes.”
I forced a smile as I broke into tears.
His arms were around me, and I sat up, pressing my face to his neck. He was suddenly the most familiar person in the world to me. I needed him, his humor, his teasing, his ability to make everything matter and nothing matter.
He lived inside of me- his baby, his spirit - and somehow I felt more confident than last time. Granted, I was scared out of my mind, but I knew that nothing would be as hard as before.
God couldn’t do that to me twice.
“ Hey, kiddo.” He brushed his hand over my hair. “We’re going to be okay. You know that, right?”
“ How do you know?”
“I just know.” He reached for my sundress, catching my little thong before it fell to the floor. “What the… is this silk? Jesus. Here.” He shoved the clothing into my lap, and I sniffled.
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be. Picking up your undies from the floor was the most sex I’ve had since our jailhouse rock at the park.”
I vividly recalled him holding me up against the bars, driving into me, and my knees locked together in effigy.
“Did you just call them ‘undies’?” I asked, my fingers bobbing in the air.
He sighed, slipping his hands into his pockets with a resigned headshake. “Air quotes. God, I missed you.”
I burst out laughing, and he grinned, his green and gold eyes sparkling even in the shadowy exam room.
“ Well.” I slipped the dress over my head, pulling the paper gown away. “Now what?”
“Now,” he replied, his eyebrows rising as I stepped into my ‘undies’ quickly, “we make a movie, V.”
“ And Matthew?”
“Right. Him. You grow some lady balls and tell him you’re staying with me.”
I followed him out into the hallway, watching several of the office staff turn at the words “lady balls.”
“You’re unbelievable.”
“Believe me, V, I’m not fighting anymore. You can continue this