closer to Emmaâs side. Sheâd been too devastated, too jealous, too angry, too everything that first year to see Emma or Zoe. She hadnât even been able to look at the pictures of mother and baby that had appeared in all the magazines and tabloids. It had taken a full year for Mackenzie to be happy for her friend, to agree to be one of Zoeâs fairy godmothers, a position only Emma could have thought up. Zoe had belonged to all three of them. And then five years ago Emma had stopped sharing her daughter, stopped inviting them to the lake, stopped pretty much everything except the odd holiday or birthday card. With no more explanation than sheâd offered when sheâd invited them this time. âYou canât leave your little girl alone. You need to wake up.â
Tears obscured her view as Serena stepped forward and took Emmaâs limp hand in her own.
âThis is not okay, Em. You know if I had my fan with me Iâd be rapping on your hand, not holding it.â
âGood God, Serena!â Mackenzie whispered. âHave a little respect.â She said this without much hope. Serenaâs worst jokes and most inappropriate statements had always occurred when she was the most worried or frightened. A fact sheâd once had to explain at the funeral of a friendâs mother.
âIâm just telling Emma that sheâs not allowed to give up. Not on us. And certainly not on Zoe.â Serena held Emmaâs hand between her own as if she might somehow transfer someof her energy or will. âAnd while weâre at it,â she added, âIâd like to know what the hell happened five years ago that made you cut us off. Weâre not going anywhere until you wake up and enlighten us, Emma. No kidding.â
Serena rearranged the sheet one last time, then placed Emmaâs hand back on top of it. âYou remember all those episodes of
I Love Lucy
you made us watch? The fudge factory? All Lucyâs failed attempts to get into show business? Well, as Desi would have said, âYou got a lot of âsplaininâ to do.ââ
Four
T he sun was coming up over the East River the next morning when Mackenzie entered the family lounge bearing two cups of coffee, and a bottle of orange juice for Zoe. Straightening slowly in the plastic chair in which sheâd slept, Serena yawned and stretched, attempting to work out the kinks in her neck, her back, her . . . there were way too many locations to tally. âBodies are not designed to mold to plastic. Itâs supposed to work the other way around.â She spoke softly so as not to wake Zoe.
âTell me about it.â Mackenzie set the drinks down on the faux-wood table and rubbed the back of her neck. Her hair stood up in multiple directions and large dark smudges, which had once been eyeliner and/or mascara, had been rubbed beneath each eye.
âWow, I hate to insult a gift horse,â Serena said, reaching for the coffee. âBut you look like shit.â
âYou too.â
âAh, well. I donât think I have enough energy to be insulted.â Serena raised her coffee cup to Mackenzieâs. âAnd I am grateful for the coffee.â
Zoe burrowed deeper into her chair, but didnât open her eyes. She was curled into a fetal position, her knees to her chest. Her arms were wrapped tightly around the pillow sheâd crammed between her face and the chair back. The blanket covered one thigh. Her red-gold hair covered most of the other.
âHave you been in to see Em?â
Mackenzie nodded. âI was in and out of there all night. At the moment, everythingâs status quo, though Iâm not sure exactly what that means. Thereâs a shift change at seven a.m. and the head of Neurocritical Care will be here to see Emma shortly after that. We need to be ready to talk to him.â
They stepped out into the hallway. Serena closed the heavy door softly behind