appeared in my entryway, I was immediately struck with an eerie feeling. I heard something, and it sounded like it was coming from down the hall. I stood perfectly still for a moment to gather my wits and tried to calm myself down. I couldn’t explain why, but I was extremely frightened. There it was again; A faint ‘tap-tap-tap sound, I could tell now that it was coming from Kalan’s unit. I debated calling out his name but I knew instinctively it wasn’t him. To make matters worse, I wasn’t able to pick up a thing. I should have sensed a presence before I even entered and I hadn’t had so much as a snip of a warning.
I squeezed my eyes shut and called out to Kalan mentally. There was no reply. Just as I was about to weave myself out of there, Kalan appeared behind me and kissed me on the back of my neck. I was so caught off guard that the scream that came out of my throat sounded like it started somewhere in my toes.
“Oh good Lord! Where did you come from?”
“ I live here remember?”
That was the last thing I remembered before I woke up in my own bed alone in the middle of the night. I sat up quickly and blinked to get my eyes to adjust to the dark room. “Kalan?” I called out and was surprised at how raspy my voice sounded. When no reply came I got up slowly and felt my way down the hall to the door that was once again closed. I opened it quickly and called out again, “Kalan?”
To my surprise, he was sitting on his couch with his feet up on the table watching a movie. The same movie we’d started watching together the night before. “Hey there. I thought you needed some alone time,” he said gruffly. I wrapped my arms around myself and walked closer to where he sat. “Kalan, something is really wrong with me.”
He was up and by my side in an instant, the back of his hand checking my forehead before he guided me to the couch . “Sit down baby, what’s wrong, are you hurting? You don’t have a temperature.” He searched my face, concern clear in his eyes.
“No, I don’t mean like that, I’m not sick. Kalan, I think I’m losing time or something. I—I can’t make sense of things and time isn’t lining up, and I didn’t go to lunch with you today at the Soup Tureen. ” I broke into sobs and Kalan wrapped a blanket around me before drawing me closer to him. “Shhh, it’s okay Jo, it’s going to be okay.”
“I’m so afraid Kalan. I’ve never had anything like this happen before and I feel like I’m going insane.”
“You’re not going insane Jo, there’s a logical reason for this. We just have to figure it out that’s all.”
“I don’t even know where to start!” I blurted and buried my face in his chest. Kalan stroked the back of my hair and rocked me back and forth in his arms as he whispered calming words. I took several deep, ragged breaths and tried to get myself to calm down.
“I think I do ,” Kalan said calmly, and kissed the top of my head.
“I don’t want to be alone right now okay?” I said, not caring how fragile I sounded.
“I’m not going anywhere, but right now you need to get some rest. We’ll figure this out together tomorrow, I promise.” He drew the blanket around my shoulders and carried me back down the hall to my bedroom , depositing me gently on my bed.
“Please Kalan, don’t leave me,” I pleaded.
“I’m never going to leave you Jo. I’ll always be right here. ” He stretched out beside me, and drew me close.
I closed my eyes and rested my head on his shoulder , allowing myself to take comfort in the steady rhythm of his heart beating. My right arm wrapped tightly around his chest as if that would prevent me from slipping away again. As much as I tried to fight it, I drifted off to sleep.
Morning came with the immediate fear that I was alone and time had swirled out of control on me again. I sat up abruptly and looked around.
“Relax baby,