the
three different carts of sizzling and highly aromatic ethnic food that
men in varying costumes and facial hair were steaming, slicing,
sauteing, skewering, frying, and heaving toward the hungry suits.
"It's all some sort of meat on a stick or dough-filled something,"
I said tonelessly, surveying the smoky meats. "Does it
matter?"
"Someone's in a great mood today."
"Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot, I should be thrilled that five years of
slave labor have turned out so well. I mean, look at us, how glam-
orous is this?" I waved my arms expansively in front of us. "It's sad
enough we don't get to go out to lunch at some point in the middle
of a sixteen-hour workday, but it's fucking pathetic that we
aren't even permitted to pick out our food ourselves."
"This is nothing new, Bette. I don't know why you're getting so
stressed about it now."
"Just a particularly lousy day. If it's possible to distinguish one
from the next."
I wanted to say "Two rings?" but restrained myself as an overweight
woman wearing a skirt suit worse than mine and a pair of
white leather Reeboks over her tights spilled hot sauce down the
front of her embroidered, ruffled blouse. I saw myself in ten years
and nearly lurched forward with queasiness.
"Of course nothing happened, that's the whole point!" I all but
screamed. Two blond guys who looked fresh off the Princeton eating
club path turned and looked at me curiously. I thought about
composing myself for a minute since, well, they were both really
cute, but I soon remembered that these obscenely hot lacrosse
players were not only way too young, but most likely also had obscenely
gorgeous girlfriends eight years my junior.
"Seriously, Bette, I don't know what you're looking for. I mean,
it's a job, right? It's still work. It doesn't matter what you do, it's
never going to be like sitting at the country club all day long, you
know? Sure, it sucks to spend every waking minute at work. And I
don't exactly adore finance, either—I never fantasized about working
at a bank—but it's just not that bad."
Penelope's parents had tried to push her toward a position at
Vogue or Sotheby's as the final finishing school in the pursuit of
her Mrs. degree, but when she'd insisted on joining the rest of us
in corporate America, they'd acquiesced—it was certainly possible
to find a husband while working in finance, as long as she kept
her priorities straight, didn't display any overt ambition, and quit
immediately after the wedding. Truth be told, though, while she
whined and complained about the job, I think she actually liked it.
She handed over a ten-dollar bill to cover both of our "kebab"
plates, and my eyes were drawn to her hand like a magnet. Even I
had to admit the ring was gorgeous. I said as much, for the tenth
time, and she beamed. It was hard to be upset about the engagement
when she was so obviously giddy. Avery had even stepped it
up since the proposal and had managed to impersonate a real, caring
fiance, which of course had made her even happier. He'd met
her after work so they could go home together, and had even
brought her breakfast in bed. More important, he had refrained
from clubbing, his favorite pastime, for a full three weeks now, the
only exception being last week's soiree in their honor. Penelope
didn't mind that Avery wanted to spend as much time as humanly
possible wedged in between banquettes—or dancing on them—
but she wanted no part of it. On the nights he was out with friends
from his consulting firm, Penelope and I would sit at the Black
Door, dive-bar extraordinaire, with Michael (when he was available),
drinking beer and wondering why anyone would want to be
anywhere else. But someone must've clued Avery in that while it's
acceptable to leave your girlfriend home six nights a week, ditching
your fiancee is different, so he'd made a concerted effort to cut
back. I knew it would never last.
We retraced our steps to the