persons.
My sojourn in the city was going well enough. Whether at work or at leisure, I felt a certain enjoyment in the company of my peers. In the evenings, men would eat and drink in crowded saloon bars, or stand around open fires on the backstreets, or just sit on the planks of the sidewalks and talk pleasant nonsense, but I found myself spending much of my time in quiet contemplation.
On one particularly pleasant evening I was standing outside the back door of Top Georgeâs saloon, watching a group of fellows toss coins. I fell into conversation with the fellow next to me, a miner of some yearsâ experience named Ben, whom I had met briefly on a previous occasion. He had the habit of cursing so foully and continuously that I dare not transcribe his exact words, but he expressed great surprise when I happened to mention that I was not working my claim at present.
âThereâs plenty good gold country all different directions,â he suggested. âHead yourself out and find a new claim if the first one donât work out!â
âOh, I donât suppose Iâd be likely to do much better at any other spot.â
âThen you wasnât gettinâ totally left dry at your claim?â
âNot at all.â
âYou was makinâ wages?â
âGood wages, sure enough.â
âThen youâre plain stupid, ainât ya?â
Ben had a way of saying this that made it seem unlike an insult. In fact, I had a good laugh over it, even while I tried to defend my actions. âLooking for gold is not the only thing a man can do in the world,â I said. âRight now Iâm making good money as a carpenter. Iâm enjoying the job, too. Itâs something different.â
âIt wonât be something different after you done it for a week or so,â Ben replied, and I had to agree.
âThereâs always something new to try my hand at if I get fed up with building hotels, though.â
âBut why would you come all the way up to the goldfields to do that for? Thatâs plain stupid! You think youâre gonna get lucky and get yourself rich in one day, poundinâ nails? Not a chance! But you get back to workinâ that claim of yours, and you just might!â
And with that, Ben proceeded to launch into an hour or more of stories of miners who had been on the verge of abandoning their efforts when they finally made the big strike.
I returned to Binder Creek the next day, and the inference might easily be taken that the old mucker had convinced me of the error of my ways. In reality, he had only reminded me of what I already knew to be true, and I would soon have followed that route with or without his advice.
I was being paid six dollars per dayâthree times what I would make in San Franciscoâbut good wages were not what I came north to find. I had come for excitement, plain and simple, and it was the idea of sticking a pan in the ground and lifting it up as a suddenly rich man that had seemed exciting. Benâs stories had been effective in one way, of course. As I trudged my way back up the valley, I was once again filled with a dreamy sort of expectancy. Unfortunately the attitude did not last. Within a few days of my return, I had reverted to my habit of spending every third or fourth day away from the business at handâhunting when I really had no need of meat, or exploring territory I had no real need to know.
My creek-bank operation rewarded me well enoughâyielding some days an ounce and a half of gold, which at sixteen dollars per ounce amounted to ten times a good dayâs wages where I was born and raised. Still, it was too predictable for me, and I say this to my discredit, for I know I should have been more than happy to spend every waking moment toiling for those returns. I did not, thoughâusually leaning my shovel against the sluicebox long before darkness compelled me to do so, and spending the
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