nothing could ever make me run away from you.”
She held up her arms to me. The words 'I am not a monster' were wrote over and over again. “I'm completely screwed up.”
“ I don't care that you write on your arms. So what?” I challenged her. “You're different. It's ok to not be like everybody else.”
“ But I want to be!” she screamed at me before she started to cry. She tried to run away once again, but I grabbed her, and pulled her close. “I want to be normal,” she cried. “Is that so wrong?”
I pushed her back so I could look her in the eyes. “Why be ordinary? Seriously. You are the most extraordinary person I know. You're better than everybody else. Can't you see that?”
She actually smiled through her tears, but didn't say anything.
“ I couldn't say that to anybody. Only you, Roxy.”
“ Thank you.” I could tell that she was done with the conversation, and needed me to change the subject.
“ You ready to your first college party?” I asked, putting my arm around her.
She nodded. “I think I am.”
ROXY
Even from the outside, the music was loud, and the smell of cheap beer was strong in the air. I knew that it was going to be lame, but I wanted to go anyway.
Usually, the thought of being around people would give me a panic attack, but not today... Not since Aiden was with me. I was actually looking forward to sharing this first experience with him.
“So what do we do now?” I asked, sort of excited.
“ We drink... socialize...” he answered. “I'm actually not very good at this either.”
“ Oh come on, Mr. Football. You're a star athlete. I'm sure you know how to socialize. Especially at a celebration! You won! Boo Crimson Tide!”
He laughed. “Oh you're such a good cheerleader.” He took my hand and pulled me inside.
As soon as we walked in, I could hear nothing but music, and lots of voices. Everybody was trying to talk over the noise. It was packed and I could feel myself start to freak out a little bit.
Aiden pulled me closer, and said in my ear, “You can do this.”
I felt braver at his words. I could do this.
The smell of alcohol was strong in the air, and I'm pretty sure that the girl next to me was smoking something that wasn't a cigarette... But I was doing this. Step one to not being crazy... Making friends. Certainly if I surrounded myself with people that liked me, they would be my motivation to stay on the straight and narrow, right?
“Aiden!” I heard somebody from behind us yell. We both turned around.
“ Hey, Gary!” Aiden said back.
“ Who is your friend?” he asked.
“ This is Roxy. Roxy, this is my roommate and the quarterback, Gary.”
“ Nice to meet you,” Gary said, shaking my hand. “Are you two... dating?”
“ No,” we both quickly said together.
“ Then you won't mind if I dance with her?” Gary asked Aiden. Gary started to pull me towards him.
Aiden looked at him, and then at me. He looked like he wanted to say something, but quickly shut his mouth. “If she wants to dance with you, then go ahead.”
Gary looked at me. Normally, I would say no, but tonight was about being brave. I wasn't scared anymore. I was confident. Or, at least that's what I kept telling myself.
“ Sure, why not?”
I let him drag me out in the sea of people and I danced with him. He wasn't a very good dancer, but I had to admit, it was fun. Well, besides the fact that he stepped on my right foot twice.
“I think my boy has a thing for you.”
“ Why do you say that?” I asked, trying to ignore the quickening of my heart beat.
“ Because he's been giving me a death glare the whole time we've been dancing.”
I looked over to where Aiden was standing, and he was staring at us. “I don't think he's giving you a death glare. He's just...” I was at a loss for words. He did kind of look mad.
“He's just giving me a death glare,” Gary finished my sentence and then laughed. “You know, it's kind of a relief to see him