bad guy in that situation. My
parents even told me that they hoped I’d end up with someone like
you one day.”
“They did?” Her
parents were such good people. I still can’t believe they were
murdered a few years ago.
“Yes. They knew your
dad was too hard on you. I think they knew he hit you, although I
never told them. I promise.”
“I know you kept my
secret. I wanted to reach out to you when they died, but I still
thought it would be wrong.”
“You really, truly,
thought that and stayed away all these years because of it?”
“Yes.”
“And you slept with
all those women because you thought you couldn’t have me?”
“Yes.”
“You can have me now.
I mean, if you still want me.”
“I can’t imagine
ever not wanting you, but I don’t deserve you.”
“Why? Because you
slept with a bunch of women?” I can’t speak, so I nod. “I’m
the one who should be worried. I mean, I know I can’t compare to them. I’ve seen them. Hell, I work with some
of them. I’m no sexy supermodel type.”
“They can’t compare
to you. I mean it. You are the sexiest woman I’ve ever met. Not
because you dress to get attention, or show off your goods. You
don’t. You’re just naturally sexy. To me at least.”
“I’m also not very
experienced…in…you know, the bedroom. I mean, I guess you do know that.” I see tears start to form in her eyes as she looks down
at the half-eaten cupcake in her hand.
She thinks she’s not
enough for me? Is she insane? She’s everything. Every damn thing.
“Look at me.” She
shakes her head, so I slide off the couch to kneel before her. “Maybe
you didn’t hear me clearly enough before, but I love you, Alexandra
Marie Roberts. I. Love. You. More than my next breath, in fact. So
please don’t ever be embarrassed around me. Anyone else, fine. But
not me. Because no matter what you do or don’t do, I will never stop loving you. I swear it.”
“Even if I don’t
want to be too adventurous? I mean, you’ve probably done everything
there is to do.”
“I’ve done quite a
bit, I’m not going to deny it. But not everything. I have my own
lines that I won’t cross. Anything that causes serious pain to me,
or my partner, is one of them. It’s not my thing and I won’t do
it. And I don’t need you to be adventurous. I have no doubt that
being with you will be better than everyone else combined. You’re
it for me.”
“I love you, too. I
just realized that I haven’t told you, but I do.”
“Thank God. I was
starting to think I was going to have to kiss you again before you’d
say it.”
“I kissed you out
there, jerk.”
“Yes, you did. It was
the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”
“You’re easily
pleased, then. Good to know.”
I pull her forward on
the couch and spread her legs. “Are you easily pleased?” I ask as
I trace circles on her upper thighs with my thumbs.
“N-no. I never, umm,
you know. With Nick.”
“Did he put his mouth
on you?”
“Not there, no.
Actually he only kissed my mouth.”
I don’t try to stop
her when she closes her legs. I won’t force her to do anything, or
to let me do anything. If she doesn’t want it, then I don’t
either. I rock back on my heels and put my hands in the air.
“One day, I want to
lay you down on a bed and taste every inch of you. But only when
you’re ready, my beautiful Xandy.”
She bites her lip and
looks nervous for a moment. Then she smiles. “Thank you for that.
Can I kiss you again?”
“You don’t have to
ask. You own me. Every inch of me is yours. Whenever you want it.”
She leans close until
her mouth is inches from mine. “Anytime? Really? Even in the
employee cafeteria, in front of all those women who want you?”
“You feeling the need
to claim me, baby?”
“A little.” She
starts to pull away, but I grab the back of her head and hold her in
place.
“I’m going to come
get you from your desk for lunch on Monday. Then, I’m going to