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think I would ever leave you again? I made that mistake once, I won’t let that ever happen again.” He gets up and walks to the other side of my bed before continuing. “I almost lost you Lil; I almost lost the only person in this world who I have. I will not let you go ever again.”
    I hear a scoff come from Wesson. I don’t look at him as I watch Parker.  He is serious.
    “So what’s the plan boys?”
    They both laugh at that, officially breaking the tension in the room. One I could only imagine growing as I feel Wesson was upset with how Parker was talking to me; I know he must feel guilty for my injuries.
    “Well doll, once you are healthy enough we leave.” Wesson says, so matter of fact. I hate that he still uses those pet names, I used to love them—who am I kidding? I still love them, that’s the problem.
    “Yes, that is the gist of it. Once everyone is healthy we will leave, before they can move us.  We will continue to stay involved, learning all that we can with the bureau then we will leave and we will finish this.  Wesson and I will get everything ready.”
    I smile; this is the best plan ever. Finally, we are going to stand up for us. We aren’t going to let them screw us over again.  We are taking our future, our fate into our own hands.  Then we will be able to finish this.  We will finally be free.
    The boys stand up to leave the room and I am okay with it. I was going to ask Park to stay but I know he has things to do. For the first time in a long time, I feel as though I might actually be able to sleep without the help of the sleeping meds or Wesson by my side.
     
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                  I watch as he steps closer to me. I watch as he watches me breathing.  I watch as his eyes dilate as he takes all of me in. I watch as he lowers his hands to my stomach, resting them on my growing womb.  I watch as he leans over and kisses the spot where his baby is resting.
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    I wake up whimpering, the tears freely falling in streams down my cheeks. Thankful no one came back in. I am sure I wasn’t asleep that long as the sun is still up but now I am afraid to go back to sleep.  I was okay with things. We were going to right the wrongs, I was allowing myself to rest.  However, my subconscious won’t let me forget the ones I lost no matter what I do.
    I am thinking of asking for pain meds to help me sleep, but that is not a road I am willing to go down and they seem to be limiting what I get, more than I think is necessary but I am thankful.  The last thing I need to add to my life right now is an addiction problem.  I hear the door open and close again and I don’t need to turn to see who it is.  My body knows, so I close my eyes and pretend to sleep.  What I want to do is ask him to crawl into the bed with me and hold me close like he used to.  We didn’t make most of the time we had and that will always be something I regret.  My body stiffens when I feel him leaning over me.  He gently kisses me on the cheek and head before going back to his spot in the chair next to me and leaning on my pillow like before.  I slip into a deep sleep and thankfully don’t have any more dreams.  I know I am a sufferer from nightmares but it still holds true that he helps me through them.
     
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    WESSON
     
    Parker and I head back to Braxton’s room and I leave the door open just a bit, I know Vanessa said she could hear better than she should out there but I want her to know what is going on.  I have a feeling she will be on our side throughout this whole mess.  Something tells me she won’t be leaving Braxton’s side. Parker watches me closely as I leave the opening in the door but doesn’t question me.  I appreciate that he understands that I know what I am doing, that I won’t do anything to jeopardize this for us… for her.
    “Vanessa will be involved, I want her to hear. She will also be able to get information for us when we aren’t around.”
    He understands and