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busy as an excuse. Make time to talk to me. You could wait up for me and then we’d talk when I get home. Instead, you go to sleep.”
    “ I'm tired, Jake,” I begin but Jake cuts me off.
    “ Stop making excuses!” he grits through his teeth. “Listen to what I have to say just once. Not Mike. Not Kyle. No one. Me. I want you to listen to me. Talk to me. As for when I see a mother with her baby, instead of thinking about our loss I think about how grateful I am that the mother isn’t experiencing what you are over her baby. Anytime something negative creeps its way into my mind, I try to really believe that there is some reason we aren’t parents right now. It’ll happen one day, Sweetness. This time in our life just  wasn’t the right time is all.”
    Those words are hard to hear when all I want is my  baby. Simply because it was the only creation in the entire universe that was a piece of Jake and me. The miscarriage has me scared about the possibility of future pregnancies. What if that baby could be the only creation of the two of us?
    I close my eyes and take in the scent of Jake. He smells like ivory soap and his body’s natural scent. I love that I can tell when he has showered. No time to get lost in that. Jake isn’t finished.
    “ All I want from you Sweetness is to know that you aren’t going to run away from this anymore. Face it head on and take control. I know this is different than what I go through, so you have to talk to me about what you are thinking and feeling. Mind reading is not one of my many incredible traits.”
    The smile on my lips cannot be suppressed. It seems it is time for me to fess up. Maybe this is the time to share with Jake t he items I take out every now and then.
    No.
    The thought echoes and bounces around my head. That is something I can’t and won’t do just yet. Taking a deep breath, I share more with Jake. Everything comes out too quickly and tears overflow. I tell him how terrified I am of getting pregnant and losing another baby. To make him understand why I am scared and sad over this tragedy, I explain to him about how the baby was the only being that was a combination of us both. Jake wraps both arms around me and kisses the crown of my head.
    “ Sweetness, think about the sunrise we watched that day at the cabin. You said that no matter what, we were worth fighting for. You have to fight. You need to remember that we are going to make the best of the situation together. Don’t forget that you promised you wouldn’t run away from me. We promised each other that we would work through this together. Keep that in mind Sweetness.”
    “ I will.”
    I slip out of his arms to crawl under the covers. Scooting over to lay against his warm body, my own heats up as it absorbs his body heat. With my hand flat, I move it across his torso. There were hills and dips as his muscles tense and move as he breathes. His skin is hot and smooth and I take in the feel of his muscled arm under my neck. I could lay here forever. Looking up at Jake, I smile slowly.
                  His lips form that perfect, slightly crooked smile that I missed so much. My hand travel upwards to find those full lips. As light as a feather, I move my forefinger over his bottom lip then Travel over his top. My fingers have a mind of their own as they move dangerously slow along his jaw line. I am turned on by the stubble that scratches my fingertips. My eyes never leave Jake’s green eyes which have become both aroused and alert.
    I lean against him and place a kiss upon his lips. Jake wastes no time grasping the back of my neck and deepening the kiss. I savor the taste of Jake's mouth. The kiss is slow yet urgent. A stray thought reminds me that it's been at least two days since Jake's hands roamed my body.
    We are already awake. Why waste this opportunity? I move d over Jake to straddle him. Strong hands lift my shirt up and over my head. Leaning down, I continue to kiss Jake. My lips