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that he would; that as yet he was by no means alienated; that she had only to be careful for the future.
    »There is no future,« said she: »I am going. Shall I ever – ever – see him again, after I leave England?«
    I returned an encouraging response. The candle being extinguished, a still half-hour elapsed. I thought her asleep, when the little white shape once more lifted itself in the crib, and the small voice asked, – »Do you like Graham, Miss Snowe?«
    »Like him! Yes, a little.«
    »Only a little! Do you like him as I do?«
    »I think not. No. Not as you do.«
    »Do you like him much?«
    »I told you I liked him a little. Where is the use of caring for him so very much: he is full of faults.«
    »Is he?«
    »All boys are.«
    »More than girls?«
    »Very likely. Wise people say it is folly to think anybody perfect; and as to likes and dislikes, we should be friendly to all, and worship none.«
    »Are you a wise person?«
    »I mean to try to be so. Go to sleep.«
    »I
cannot
go to sleep. Have you no pain just here« (laying her elfish hand on her elfish breast), »when you think
you
shall have to leave Graham; for
your
home is not here?«
    »Surely, Polly,« said I, »you should not feel so much pain when you are very soon going to rejoin your father. Have you forgotten him? Do you no longer wish to be his little companion?«
    Dead silence succeeded this question.
    »Child, lie down and sleep,« I urged.
    »My bed is cold,« said she. »I can't warm it.«
    I saw the little thing shiver. »Come to me,« I said, wishing, yet scarcely hoping, that she would comply: for she was a most strange, capricious, little creature, and especially whimsical with me. She came, however, instantly, like a small ghost gliding over the carpet. I took her in. She was chill; I warmed her in my arms. She trembled nervously; I soothed her. Thus tranquillized and cherished she at last slumbered.
    »A very unique child,« thought I, as I viewed her sleeping countenance by the fitful moonlight, and cautiously and softly wiped her glittering eyelids and her wet cheeks with my handkerchief. »How will she get through this world, or battle with this life? How will she bear the shocks and repulses, the humiliations and desolations, which books, and my own reason tell me are prepared for all flesh.«
    She departed the next day; trembling like a leaf when she took leave, but exercising self-command.
     
     
Chapter IV
Miss Marchmont
    On quitting Bretton, which I did a few weeks after Paulina's departure – little thinking then I was never again to visit it: never more to tread its calm old streets – I betook myself home, having been absent six months. It will be conjectured that I was of course glad to return to the bosom of my kindred. Well! the amiable conjecture does no harm, and may therefore be safely left uncontradicted. Far from saying nay, indeed, I will permit the reader to picture me, for the next eight years, as a bark slumbering through halcyon weather, in a harbour still as glass – the steersman stretched on the little deck, his face up to heaven, his eyes closed: buried, if you will, in a long prayer. A great many women and girls are supposed to pass their lives something in that fashion; why not I with the rest?
    Picture me then idle, basking, plump, and happy, stretched on a cushioned deck, warmed with constant sunshine, rocked by breezes indolently soft. However, it cannot be concealed that, in that case, I must somehow have fallen over-board, or that there must have been wreck at last. I too well remember a time – a long time, of cold, of danger, of contention. To this hour, when I have the night-mare, it repeats the rush and saltness of briny waves in my throat, and their icy pressure on my lungs. I even know there was a storm, and that not of one hour nor one day. For many days and nights neither sun nor stars appeared; we cast with our own hands the tackling out of the ship; a heavy tempest lay on us; all hope that we