this go, Noah? It has
absolutely nothing to do with you.”
He reaches
up and gently pushes a strand of hair out of my face. “You haven't figured it
out yet?” he asks quietly, his eyes searching mine.
There's some
hint of emotion that is swirling around in his gaze and it scares me. “No,” I
say softly. “I don't want to ever figure it out. Whatever you think is going on
with us, isn't happening.”
“You should
know by now that I don't give up easily.”
“I have a
boyfriend.”
“He doesn't
deserve you.”
“Get out.”
A muscle
ticks in his jaw. “You can't just kick me out of your room and expect that to
be the end of this.”
“I am and it
will be.” I pull myself together as I gaze at him with now cold eyes. “If
you so much as hint a word of any of this to Tate, I'll move out and I won't
look back,” I threaten.
His lips
part with shock and his eyes narrow. “You can't be serious, Blayre.”
“Try me.”
“Where would
you go?”
“Cole.”
I have no
idea if Cole would want a roommate but I am betting he'd consider the idea. Not
that I really want to live with Cole, but I can't imagine living in this house
with Tate if he ever finds out about the cutting. I've been wondering for weeks
if I am here out of some sort of obligation but I've had my answer for a while
now. He genuinely cares about me and I know he'd be devastated if he discovered
what I do to myself.
Noah's
expression is almost scary the way his face tenses up before an eerie glint enters
his gaze. “This is not over,” he says calmly before he turns and walks
out of my room.
As soon as
he's gone, I quickly hurry to my door and slam it shut before locking it. Then
I turn and walk over to my bed and fling myself on it. I grab my pillow and
scream my frustration into it.
Lonely
Feeling lonely in the
world
The
following morning I find Noah in the kitchen with Tate and I'm not the least
bit surprised. I'd expected this and would have tried to come down later if it weren't
for school or the fact that Noah could wait me out until nine-thirty if he
wanted to. With my grades the way they were, I was going to have to deal with
him this morning because missing anymore classes was not an option.
“Morning,”
Tate says from where he's leaning against the counter, reading the paper.
“Morning,” I
murmur as I walk past Noah—who is sitting at the island counter eating an
omelet. I peer into the fridge and grab the first thing that could pass for
breakfast. Which happens to be yogurt, as usual.
“There's an
extra omelet in the oven if you want it,” Noah says.
My eyes lift
and I look him dead in the eye and say, “No, thanks,” before turning away and
grabbing a spoon out of the drawer.
“I was
thinking maybe you should invite Paige over for dinner,” my brother says as he
sets aside the paper, his attention now focused on me.
“Why?” I ask
as I tear open the top of the yogurt and toss the tab in the garbage before
dipping my spoon in it. I am aware of Noah watching our conversation closely
and I do my best to ignore him. I'm still pissed that he'd gone through my
personal belongings and today is the first day that I am officially cutting him
out of my life.
“Well, it
might help her to get out for a bit and since Blake was never over here, she
might find it a bit of a relief,” Tate suggests.
“She's
gone.”
“What do you
mean she's gone?”
I sigh.
“She's leaving this morning to go stay with extended family. She doesn't plan
on coming back,” I admit before I shovel some yogurt in my mouth in hopes that
he'd drop the subject and just let me eat. I had decided it was best not to
tell anyone about Paige's pregnancy. I was hurt by the way she was leaving me
but that didn't mean I wouldn't still try to protect her in any way that I
could.
“You're
telling me that she's gone for good?” Tate asks, his eyes searching mine.
“Yep.”
“I'm sorry,
Blayre. I know how much you liked her,” he
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