mother had a relationship with another man. Yet she did. In all the years Vanessa had spent with her father, he had never turned to another woman. Or, if he had, he had been much too discreet for her to notice.
And what did it matter? she asked herself as she dressed the next morning. They had always lived their own lives, separate, despite the fact that they shared a house.
But it did matter. It mattered that her mother had been content all these years to live in this same house without contact with her only child. It mattered that she had been able to start a life, a new life, that had no place for her own daughter.
It was time, Vanessa told herself. It was time to ask why.
She caught the scent of coffee and fragrant bread as she reached the bottom landing. In the kitchen she saw her mother standing by the sink, rinsing a cup. Loretta was dressed in a pretty blue suit, pearls at her ears and around her throat. The radio was on low, and she was humming even as she turned and saw her daughter.
âOh, youâre up.â Loretta smiled, hoping it didnât look forced. âI wasnât sure Iâd see you this morning before I left.â
âLeft?â
âI have to go to work. Thereâre some muffins, and the coffeeâs still hot.â
âTo work?â Vanessa repeated. âWhere?â
âAt the shop.â To busy her nervous hands, she poured Vanessa a cup of coffee. âThe antique shop. I bought it about six years ago. The Hopkinsesâ place, you might remember. I went to work for them whenâsome time ago. When they decided to retire, I bought them out.â
Vanessa shook her head to clear it of the grogginess. âYou run an antique shop?â
âJust a small one.â She set the coffee on the table. The moment they were free, her hands began to tug at her pearl necklace. âI call it Lorettaâs Attic. Silly, I suppose, but it does nicely. I closed it for a couple of days, but⦠I can keep it closed another day or so if youâd like.â
Vanessa studied her mother thoughtfully, trying to imagine her owning a business, worrying about inventory and book-keeping. Antiques? Had she ever mentioned an interest in them?
âNo.â It seemed that talk would have to wait. âGo ahead.â
âIf you like, you can run down later and take a look.â Loretta began to fiddle with a button on her jacket. âItâs small, but I have a lot of interesting pieces.â
âWeâll see.â
âAre you sure youâll be all right here alone?â
âIâve been all right alone for a long time.â
Lorettaâs gaze dropped. Her hands fell to her sides. âYes, of course you have. Iâm usually home by six-thirty.â
âAll right. Iâll see you this evening, then.â She walked to the sink to turn on the faucet. She wanted water, cold and clear.
âVan.â
âYes?â
âI know I have years to make up for.â Loretta was standing in the doorway when Vanessa turned. âI hope youâll give me a chance.â
âI want to.â She spread her hands. âI donât know where either of us is supposed to start.â
âNeither do I.â Lorettaâs smile was hesitant, but less strained. âMaybe thatâs its own start. I love you. Iâll be happy if I can make you believe that.â She turned quickly and left.
âOh, Mom,â Vanessa said to the empty house. âI donât know what to do.â
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âMrs. Driscoll.â Brady patted the eighty-three-year-old matron on her knobby knee. âYouâve got the heart of a twenty-year-old gymnast.â
She cackled, as heâd known she would. âItâs not my heart Iâm worried about, Brady. Itâs my bones. They ache like the devil.â
âMaybe if youâd let one of your great-grandchildren weed that garden of yours.â
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