When she didn't say anything in response, just simply stepped past me, her expression registered.
She was upset. Immediately, my smile fell away and concern pushed aside the hope and joy I'd had at seeing her.
“What's wrong?” I took a step towards her, filled with an instinctive need to protect her from whatever had her hurting.
When she held up her hand to keep me from touching her, my stomach turned to ice.
“We need to talk.”
I started to shake my head, more in denial than protest. It couldn't be what I thought it was going to be. “Katka,” I started.
“Please, Blayne.” Her voice broke on my name and broke my heart in the same moment.
I didn't need her to say it – I knew what was coming. At the same time, I needed her to say it because I didn't want to believe it.
“Do not make this any harder than it needs to be.” Her eyes filled with tears and I could see her struggling to hold them back.
I didn't know how it could be any harder. It felt like she was ripping my heart out. My entire body felt like it was made of wood, solid and unmovable. I couldn't speak, couldn't blink back or release the tears I felt burning my eyelids.
“We knew it would end like this,” she continued. The words sounded like something she'd been rehearsing. “It would be foolish of us to have thought otherwise. You are married. To my sister. This is unfair to us and to her.”
She took a shuddering breath and I wasn't sure what pained me more, her words or seeing how much those words were hurting her.
“I cannot see you anymore, Blayne. What was between us is over. Do not try to contact me or visit me. Go to my sister. Be her husband.”
“She doesn't want me either.” I finally found words and I spoke them through gritted teeth.
Katka gave me a soft, sad smile. “She will. I know my sister. If she is not already in love with you, she will be.” Her voice softened until I almost couldn't hear it. “You are far easier to love than you have ever believed.”
She came towards me then, her hands cupping my face as she rose up on her toes to bring our mouths together. I hadn't realized she'd started to cry until I tasted the salt from her tears as my lips parted under hers. I started to slide my arms around her waist, wanting to keep her there, hold her tight until she promised not to leave me, but she pulled away.
“I am sorry to hurt you,” she said, her hand lingering on my cheek. “But I cannot say that I am sorry to have met you, to have loved you.” She dropped her hand. “Take care of my sister. Good-bye.”
I couldn't even find the strength to turn as she walked away. The door closed behind her and my legs couldn't hold me anymore. I slumped down onto the floor, staring in shock and seeing nothing. It wasn't supposed to happen like this. We were meant to be together. I knew it more than I knew anything else. I couldn't lose her.
But I had.
Chapter 7
Blayne
I wasn't sure how long I sat there on the living room floor, wearing only my sweatpants, my still-wet hair dripping onto my bare shoulders. It felt like forever, but when I finally managed to get to my feet, my legs were stiff, but not as bad as they would've been if hours had passed. A glance at the clock said Katka had left less than an hour ago.
Left.
She'd left me.
Pain went through me. I'd never had a woman break up with me before because I'd never actually been in a relationship. Even if I had been, I'd never thought of myself as being the one dumped. And I'd certainly never imagined what it would feel like to have my heart broken. I snorted a bitter laugh. This wasn't broken. This was shattered.
In eighth grade, my class had gone on a ski trip and I'd been showing off for some girl whose name I didn't even remember now. I'd told her that I could jump off the ski lift, turn in the air and ski back down the mountain like I was some badass Olympian. What I'd actually done was break my right leg in three places, my right arm in two