Weâre having to live apart. You canât expect me to like that. Or pretend to like it.â
She nodded. âOK. Itâs not going to be easy. But weâll get through it. They wonât let me stay out in the field for too long. No one does. A year. Eighteen months, max.â
âAlmost there already, then,â he said. The tone was ironic, but he was smiling now at least.
âCome to bed,â she said. âItâs our last night. We ought to make it worthwhile.â
âOK,â he said. âFive minutes. Iâll just finish the wine.â
âDonât drink too much. I donât want you incapable,â she half-joked. âHow are you feeling now, anyway?â
He shrugged. âNot so bad. Tired. Aching a bit. But Iâve been feeling better lately. Not so difficult walking.â
She looked at him, wondering what was going on in his mind. Whether he was really feeling better or just trying to make the best of things. Since heâd received the diagnosis, heâd become harder to read, more withdrawn. When she tried to talk about it, he just shrugged it off. There was nothing to say, he insisted. Maybe it would be all right, maybe it wouldnât. All he could do was take each day as it came.
âOK,â she said. âBut you donât want me falling asleep on you.â
âCertainly donât.â He raised the wine glass in her direction. âHereâs to you, Marie. Hereâs to us. Hereâs to the future.â
He sounded very slightly drunk, she thought. And there was no way to tell whether he was being sincere. âYeah,â she said. âTo me. To us. To the future.â
Chapter 2
Theyâd thrown open the large picture windows and a chill wind was gusting off the canal through the apartment, but the stench of blood was unavoidable. The young officer, Hodder, stood hesitantly in the kitchen doorway, trying to catch Salterâs eye. He looked faintly bilious.
After a moment, Salter thumbed off the mobile phone and looked up. âAll OK, son?â There was only a few yearsâ difference in their ages, but Salter categorized most colleagues as âsonâ, âmateâ or âguvâ, depending on their relative rank. He was a tall angular man, his head shaved, his eyes staring disapprovingly at the world through narrow steel-rimmed glasses.
âDidnât want to interrupt,â Hodder said. He gestured towards the phone. âYour sister?â
Salter stared at him, uncomprehending, then laughed. âNo, just my little joke. One of our esteemed colleagues, Marie Donovan.â
âDonât know her.â
âYou wouldnât,â Salter said. âCovert. Deep cover.â
Hodder shook his head. âDonât know how they do it,â he said. âMonths on end. Leading a double life. Must drive you bananas.â
Salter smiled. âIt does, son. Take it from one who knows.â
Hodder blinked, suspecting heâd made a gaffe. âNo offence. Didnât realize youâd done it.â
âYears of it. And, yes, it can leave you pretty messed up.â He gazed impassively back at Hodder, as if daring him to take the conversation further. âHow are things through there?â
âTheyâre nearly done with the crime scene stuff. Just finishing up.â
âAbout bloody time,â Salter said. âSooner we can all get out of this place the better.â
âItâs a mess in there,â the young man said. âThough theyâve taken the body out now.â His expression suggested that this was a relief.
âThank Christ for that. This is a nasty one.â Salter peered quizzically around, as if his words might apply equally to the compact kitchen in which they were standing. âWill hit the resale value, too. That living roomâll need completely stripping back.â He laughed mirthlessly. âNo consideration,