looks like itâs ready to harvest.
Despite the worry over the witch, my stomach clenches in excitement at the thought of seeing him. Iâll pass by slowly, just once, I tell myself. Maybe heâll be outside so I can say hi.
Seeing Little Man will make me feel better, I realize, even as I think, Gogo would kill me if she knew about this.
When I reach Little Manâs gate, his dogs run out, howling in greeting. The gate swings open and Little Man strolls out, whistling, winking at me like he knows Iâm coming by to see him.
Anyway, Iâve gotten my wish and my heart leaps so far, it might as well have taken a fast airplane flight all the way to Zimbabwe.
While Iâm trying to snatch it back from wherever it went, Little Man says, âHey wena Khosi, what are you doing here?â
âI was just passing by,â I gasp.
âWhere were you going?â
Now I have to find an excuse. I never pass by his house except with my family on our way to church. âI was just at Thandiâs,â I say, pointing in the direction of her house. But of course, my house is in the wrong direction to come this way. Heâs going to know I wandered by this way just to see him. Oh, my God, how embarrassing.
Iâm getting hot and itchy. Iâm hoping heâll ignore the fact that I wouldnât normally pass his house. I point to the wrapped newspaper full of Mamaâs muthi . âIâm just out getting some few small things for my gogo .â
âThatâs cool,â he says. â My gogo sends me to the sangomaâs house to get muthi, too.â
Weâre silent while I think of something to say. At school, my other friends help carry the conversation so there are no awkward silences.
I ask the first thing that comes to mind. âHave you ever gone to a sangoma when you were sick?â
He shakes his head no. His tightly coiled dreads reach to his shoulders and swing with the movement of his head. I like them. No, I love them.
âWe go to the doctor if weâre sick,â he says. âThat sangoma medicine, itâs all superstition and lies.â
All those warm fuzzy feelings I have for him dry up in defensiveness. I donât want to argue with him, but I canât keep my mouth shut. âThese herbs really help my grandmother with her arthritis.â
âI bet doctors have some medicine for your gogoâs arthritis that will help her a lot more than a bunch of old herbs.â
âBut herbs are natural, not like the medicine you get from doctors,â I protest.
âDo you really believe in all that ancestor stuff?â Little Man asks.
âYou donât?â
He shrugs. âI donât know what I think.â
âI believe in it.â I lower my voice, as though Gogo and Mama are listening in, even though theyâre nowhere around. Since Mama doesnât believe in things like that and Gogo does, I canât talk about it without offending somebody.
âReally? Why?â
âIâve seen some things. And at the end of the day, I couldnât explain them.â
âLike what?â he asks.
I think about everything that has happened in the last two daysâthe witch who told me she was coming for me and nothing could stop her, the drunken man who changed into a crocodile and then back into a man right before my very eyes. Did I just dream his sudden transformation? And thatâs another thingâthe dreams Iâve been having, dreams so real it feels like I exist in two worlds at the same time.
But I donât know how to tell these stories to anybody else without sounding crazy. So I just shake my head.
âI thought you loved science,â Little Man says. âArenât you making the highest marks in biology?â
I nod. âI think itâs interesting to learn about the human body. I like learning about diseases and how people cure them.â
I donât really know how to