what a good thing it was the
niece hadn't come or there would have been two of them talking about
this paragon, her achievements, her wealth, her lovely home, and her
devotion to her parents. As it was, her day was spoiled. She should have
been alone, to think about Stephen, to remember--and perhaps to plan?
Olive was wearing a trouser suit in bright emerald green and a lot of
mock-gold jewelry. Kitsch, Gwendolen called it to herself. Olive was too
fat and too old to wear trousers or anything in that color. She was proud
of her long fingernails and had lacquered them the same scarlet as her
lipstick. Gwendolen stared at lips and nails with the critical and mocking
eye of a young girl. She often wondered why she had friends when she
rather disliked them and didn't want their company.
"When my great-niece was fourteen she was already five feet ten inches
tall," said Olive. "My husband was alive then. 'If you grow any more,' he
said to her, 'you'll never find a boyfriend.The boys won't go out with a girl
taller than them.' And what do you think happened? When she was
seventeen and over six feet she met this stockbroker. He'd wanted to be
an actor but they wouldn't have him because he was six feet six, far too
tall for the theater, so he went into stockbroking and made a packet. The
two of them were quite an item. He wanted to marry her but she had her
career to think of."
"How interesting," said Gwendolen, thinking of Dr. Reeves who had
once said she was a nice girl and he was awfully fond of her.
"Girls don't have to get married these days like we did." She seemed to
have forgotten Gwendolen's single status and went on blithely, "They
don't feel they're left on the shelf. There's no status to marriage anymore.
I know it's a bold thing to say but if I was young again, I wouldn't get
married. Would you?"
"I never did," said Gwendolen austerely.
"No, that's true," Olive said as if Gwendolen might have been in some
doubt about it. "Maybe you did the right thing all along."
But I would have married Stephen Reeves if he'd asked me, Gwendolen
thought after Olive had gone and she was clearing up the tea things. We
would have been happy, I would have made him happy, and I'd have got
away from Papa. But he had never asked her. Once he had said he was
fond of her, Papa seemed to have made a point of being there, though he
could not have overheard. When her mother was dead Stephen signed
the death certificate and said that if they wanted Mrs. Chawcer cremated
they would need a second doctor's signature, so he'd ask his partner to
come round.
He didn't say he'd enjoyed all those teas they'd had together or that he'd
miss them or her. Therefore she knew he'd comeback. Probably there
was some rule in medical etiquette that forbade a general practitioner
asking the relatives of a patient to go out with him. He was planning on
coming back, waiting till after the funeral. Or perhaps he meant to come
to the funeral. Gwendolen went through several series of agony because
she had omitted to ask him to the funeral. That too might be in the
medical etiquette rule book. She couldn't ask her father. They were both
supposed to be grieving too much to ask each other anything like that.
Dr. Reeves didn't come to the funeral. It was at St. Mark's, and apart
from Gwendolen and her father, only three other people were there: an
old cousin of Mrs. Chawcer's, their current maid, who came because she
was religious, and the old man next door in St. Blaise Avenue. Since he
hadn't been at thefuneral, Gwendolen was sure Stephen Reeves would
just turn up at the house one day. He was leaving it for a little while
outof respect for the dead and the mourners. During that week she spent
more time, trouble, and money on her appearance than she had ever
done before or since. She had her hair cut and set, she bought two new
dresses, one gray and one dark blue, she experimented with makeup.
Everyone else piled it on,