that she’d been sleeping next to a killing crime boss.
“Baby?” Yamin called out again. He grabbed her hand and opened one eye to look at her.
“Yea?” Jessica answered, as she pushed him forward in the tub and began to wash his back.
“What you thinking about?”
“Nothing.”
“Don’t lie to me. I know you and you only get quiet like that when you’re in deep thought. What’s on your mind?”
“You mean lie to you, like you’ve been lying to me all of this time?” Jessica stated tensely.
Yamin huffed and sat back in the tub relaxing his head. He knew that he shouldn’t have deceived Jessica for so long, but there was no way he could let her know about The Versace League. The League had too many secrets and was responsible for too many lives to let anybody know about it. Now that she was his wife, he would only fill her in on what he did and that was it, but nothing too specific.
“I lied to you, but my feelings for you have never been a lie. I married you because I love you, all of that is real. I couldn’t tell you about my lifestyle because I am accountable for too many people. I know too many secrets and too many people know my secrets, that’s not just information that I can give out to anybody.”
“But I am your wife Yamin! I was your girlfriend and then your fiancé. You don’t think you should have told me before you decided to walk down that aisle with me?” Jessica tossed the towel in the water and stood to her feet. She felt so hurt and angry. She dried her hands on her shorts and began to pace the bathroom floor.
“I couldn’t tell you before then, because-you’re a lawyer, you know how shit go,” Yamin sat forward in the tub and shut his eyes tightly. A bout of nausea hit him and he held his head down to allow it to pass. He couldn’t believe he allowed himself to get so fucked up.
Jessica laughed wickedly. “So, did you marry me because you knew that if I ever found out the truth about what you did that I could never testify against you in court or was it because you wanted free legal services? Do you really love me Yamin or am I just a scheme in your list of schemes?”
“Man, I’m not about to argue with you. Hand me a towel so I can get out this damn tub-please,” Yamin placed his hands on the side of the tub and stood to his feet. He was dizzy, his stomach was turning flips, and he was still sad about Cort, he just couldn’t stop thinking about him.
“You forced me into this life Yamin! How is that fair to me? You didn’t even give me a choice!”
“Well, I’m giving you a choice now. You can either stay or you can leave. Whatever you do make the decision quietly.”
“Excuse me? Make the decision quietly! It’s that easy for you, Yamin? Is it that easy for you to just tell me that I can stay or leave? Do you really care about me?”
“I told you that I did! What else do you want me to say to you?” Yamin roared, his voice bouncing off the walls. “It’s not the time to discuss this shit, okay? My niece is still missing and the muthafucka that took her and killed Cort is still out there!”
“Oh, now it’s not the time to discuss it. You asked me what I was thinking and when I tell you, you tell me it’s not the time to discuss it. Well I wanna discuss it now. This is my life you’re playing with. My life Yamin!”
Yamin stepped out of the tub and walked over to grab a towel. He wrapped it around the lower half of his body and moved to where Jessica stood. He stopped directly in front of her and stared into her eyes. She was so beautiful to him. Her cocoa brown skin, brown eyes, and full succulent lips is what attracted him to her.
“I got more important things to worry about