at the diary over lunch.â
I fall into step beside him. âWe can try to read more of what Constance wrote on that one page.â What if she wrote on more pages?
We walk through the metal detector, and Adam calls out, âHey, Mrs. W! Itâs cool if we eat in here, right?â
âJust clean up after yourselves.â She smiles behind the big checkout counter.
âI thought you werenât supposed to eat in the library,â I mutter, as we wend between tables over to a sunny corner in the biography section.
âYeah. At some point, there was a big reversal on that. I guess they figure we can take the books home and slobber all over them.â
I set the diary between us and open to the page with writingâConstanceâs, not ours.
Adam arranges the components of his lunch according to some system. He has one of those lunchboxes thatâs a set of small containers, and each compartment holds something different. Grapes. Baby carrots tucked in a tidy row. Finally a sandwich, which he extracts from its box.
He catches me studying him. âWhat?â
The way he sorts everything helps hold the huge, messy shapelessness of life together. But I donât say that because it would be weird. âYouâre weird,â I say instead, but he knows I donât mean it.
He starts to summarize what happened with the diary. âYou wrote the rosemary line from
Hamlet
. . .â he says.
I repeat the line:
Rosemary, thatâs for remembrance. Pray, love, remember.
He continues. âAnd then we noticed Constanceâs writing.â
âWhich is really faint,â I add.
âSo we didnât see it before,â he says. âEven though we looked pretty carefully.â
âBut we should have seen it.â I say what we both know. âIt isnât that faded.â
âYou think thereâs actually something strange happening with this book?â His voice is just louder than his breath.
âDonât you?â
He nods. Once.
We both lean over the book, careful to hold our food away, and read together:
Father says we . . .
The next word is blotted, like it got wet. The letters are frayed around the edges, tiniest hairs of ink reaching out into the roughness of the page.
Need.
Adam works it out.
Father says we need the rosemary so that we can remember.
âRemember what?â I wonder, as I turn the page.
My hand flies to my mouth. Adam and I recoil. The new page just says
Wilkie.
Over and over and over and over. The whole page. Filled with the name Wilkie, written neatly at first and then more and more messily. And then itâs blotchy, like rain fell on the page, drops of water, staining the cursive with pale brown blots.
Wilkie. Wilkie. Wilkie. Wilkie.
Adam whispers, âSo that we can remember
Wilkie.
â
Four
W E BOTH LEAP UP, and Adam yanks me away from the table. My wooden chair pitches backwards and clatters to the floor.
âEverything okay?â Mrs. Wallace calls.
âYup!â I squeak. Adam gives an awkward thumbs-up. Itâs good that Mrs. Wallace isnât looking too closely, because all the color has drained from Adamâs face except two weird red blotches low on his cheeks.
I take a steadying breath. âItâs just a name. Written over and over.â
âThatâs the creepy part.â Adam hugs himself. âYou can tell something was wrong.â
âBut whatever was wrong was a long time ago. Itâs not wrong anymore.â
âYou donât know that,â Adam counters. âIf Wilkie, like, died, then heâs still dead.â
âYeah, and thatâs sad, but everyone from history is dead. The tragedy is over.â
âSo why are you standing over here and not sitting with the perfectly harmless, not-at-all-weird diary there on the table?â he challenges.
âYou pulled me!â
He reaches for my hand.