and be there for each other? How could you possibly have not experienced that in all this time?”
He turned and looked at me and there was something in his eyes that made my breath catch and my heart beat faster. “Because I haven’t met anybody that I’d like to do that with yet. At least this way I’ve never had a broken heart.”
“ Oh, honey. Being in love, truly in love is the most amazing feeling. You should really experience it, at least once in your life,” I said.
“ Why? Because that’s what you and Matt have? What are the chances of that happening to me, Sarah? What are the chances of me finding somebody, well, somebody like you?”
“ Carlos. You are an amazing guy. You’re handsome, friendly, funny and incredibly loving. If you open your heart to it, it will happen.”
He turned to face me on the couch. “Really? It’s that easy? That’s all I have to do? Okay. With you as my witness, Sarah Pearl I hereby open my heart to being in love,” he said sarcastically as he placed my hand on his heart.
I grinned and playfully smacked him. “Stop being such a smart ass,” I said then I yawned. I was exhausted from the last few days, we didn’t sleep when we were on the boat, but I really didn’t want to be alone. What if I traced my scar and he didn’t trace back? I would automatically start thinking the worst things… and I’d probably have another nightmare.
Maybe I could just doze on the couch. Of course that wouldn’t be fair to Carlos, I’m sure he was pretty tired too. Carlos must have been thinking the same thing because he suddenly grabbed my hand and stood up, pulling me with him. “My ass isn’t just smart, it’s cute too. I’ll show you. Come darlin’,” he said, “Time for us to go to bed.”
I thought he was planning on going to the guest room and my eyes showed my growing panic as we headed down the hall. “I’m afraid to be alone, Carlos,” I whispered. “I’ll have nightmares.”
“ You’re not gonna be alone Sarah,” he said.
“ Carlos,” I began, but stopped as he held his hand up.
“ Don’t get your hopes up,” he smiled. “I’m way too tired tonight anyway. But I don’t want your screams waking me up, so I’m staying by your side.”
I opened my mouth again to protest but he said, “What? Don’t trust yourself near me? I understand. I get that a lot. I’ll sleep on top of the sheet, okay? But you can still peak at my ass if you want to.” Then he grinned a goofy Carlos grin.
I smiled, nodded my head and put my arm around his waist, “That’s twice now… thanks again Carlos.” We started to turn into the bedroom, when I remembered that Matt and I hadn’t made the bed or changed the sheets since we were last in here. Carlos’ eyes went wide as he took in the mayhem. I turned to him and said, “The guest room?”
He nodded, “Uh, YEAH, the guest room. Wow, Sarah. I gotta admit. I’m impressed. You’re a freaking insatiable animal. You’re a lot like me, you know.”
“ Stop,” I grinned and blushed as I ducked into the bathroom and put on one of Matt’s t-shirts and a pair of his sweats. I grabbed his pillow off my bed to have his scent with me and went to join Carlos.
He took one look at me in the baggy clothes and said, “Gee, sexy. I might have a hard time controlling myself after seeing you in that.”
“ Down tiger,” I said, smiling, as I climbed into bed.
I was asleep a minute after my head hit the pillow.
I tried to stifle the scream before it came, but I still woke up Carlos. “I’m sorry,” I mumbled as I started to climb out of bed. “I’ll go to my room, you go back to sleep.”
He grabbed my arm, pulled me back into bed and wrapped his arms around me. He began gently caressing my forehead. “You’re not going anywhere, kiddo,” he said. “WE are going back to sleep now.”
I relaxed slightly as I felt his soft fingers on my head. “My dad used to do that,” I said.
“ Yeah, well, if you