decide right now, do you?â
Her words were so strangled with tension that Sam glanced sharply at her.
âDo you?â she demanded, feeling brittle.
âNo.â Theyâd reached the ranch house, and now he parked the truck and turned on the seat, meeting Roniâs anxious gaze across the top of Jessieâs car seat. âBut Iâm going to think on it hard.â
Roni slumped with relief, then hid her reaction by releasing Jessie from her harness. The exhausted baby was limp, her cherubâs mouth parted in the soft breaths of slumber and she made scarcely a murmur as Roni lifted her free. Sam had come around to the passenger side by this time and helped Roni climb out. His hand was warm on her upper arm, holding her still as he looked down into her face.
âIâm depending on you to help me figure this out, Curly. No matter that Iâm already crazy about the kid, Iâve got to do whatâs best for her in the long run.â
Roni caught a tremulous breath. âI know, Sam.â
He gave her arm a brief squeeze that was part thanks, part encouragement, and they went inside. Roni hadnât made it halfway down the hall when the phone rang. The baby on her shoulder jumped, then begin to mewl fretfully. Sam cursed and hurried to the kitchen, catching the receiver up before the next ring. Gratefully, Roni sought out the platform rocker in his bedroom. Rocking and singing softly as daylight fled and the room grew shadowy, she was much relieved when Jessie gave a tired sigh and settled back down.
After a while, Roni heard Sam hang up, and when he appeared in the doorway a moment later, a peculiar expression etched his rugged features. âThe Lord works in mysterious ways.â
She gave him a curious look. âWhat? Who was that?â
âMaybe the answer.â
Roniâs voice was soft, to avoid waking the child she cradled in her arms, but her tone was wry. âSpit it out, Sam. You know your laconic cowboy persona drives me bats.â
âAbout Jessie.â He crossed to where Roni sat and swept callused fingers over the tiny girlâs russet curls. âThat was Mrs. Veatch. She says the Newtons have reconsidered. Theyâre missing Jessie like crazy and want to begin adoption proceedings.â
âNo.â Roniâs heart lurched, and her arms tightened involuntarily around the child.
âCurly, weâve got to be practical about this.â
âCold-blooded, you mean?â Roniâs expression was fierce. âI wonât believe it of you, Sam. Tell me you donât care about Jessie. I dare you.â
âIâll be damned if I let my emotions cloud whatâs best for her,â he said.
âSee? You canât deny it, because you already love her as though she was your own flesh and blood.â Gazing down into the sleeping childâs rosebud face, Roni felt a wave of emotion pulling her under, forcing her to admit the truth. She gave a small, breathless cry of surrender. âAnd so do I.â
Samâs expression was suddenly full of worry and concern. He squatted down on his heels beside the rocker so that their eyes were on the same level. âCurly...â
âI want this child. You canât give her away, Sam. I wonât let you.â
He groaned. âBut weâve got to think about whatâs right for Jessie.â
âHow about whatâs right for you? For me?â Roni demanded.
Sam threw up his hands. âSo what do you want me to do?â
Cheeks pale, Roni hesitated, then met his gaze. âThe right thing. Marry me, Sam.â
Three
W hen Sam was seventeen, heâd been kicked in the head by a half-broken saddle bronc Kenny had dared him to ride. Roniâs words produced the same stunning sensation, the impression of falling endlessly until you hit the groundâhard.
âWhat did you say?â The huskiness of his own voice startled him.
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Lex Williford, Michael Martone