driverâs side. âWeâre going for a ride.â
âI donât want to go anywhere with you!â Sniffling, Roni wiped her tears on the hem of her knit shirt and tried to glare at him. âWhatâs so all-fired important about taking a ride?â
âRead it somewhere,â he muttered, starting the vehicle. âSupposed to be soothing to cranky kids or something.â He threw the truck into gear and tore down the dusty drive as if all the demons of hell were after them.
âThatâs if the baby has colic!â Roni shouted over the engine noise and Jessieâs continued bellows of rage.
âWhat have we got to lose?â
âFine. Suit yourself.â Crossing her arms, Roni stared mulishly out the window and said nothing further.
Nearly thirty miles later, Jessieâs screams had turned to soft snores. Sam slowed to a more reasonable pace, made a U-turn and headed back toward the ranch.
âI didnât mean it, you know,â he said finally.
Roni clamped down on her bottom lip to hide a betraying trembling, then forced herself to speak honestly. âItâs true anyway, and I apologize. I overstepped my place. Sheâs not my responsibility.â
âRoni, Iâm sorry. I didnât mean that the way it sounded.â Sam squinted against the orange globe of the sun resting on the western horizon and ran his free hand down his square jaw. âThe way youâve pitched in, youâve got a right to say whatever you think.â
Roni stroked Jessieâs plump fist, taking care not to wake the sleeping baby. If Sam was offering an olive branch, she would be foolish not to accept it. âNeither one of us has any experience dealing with a little heifer as stubborn as this one.â
âSheâs put me through the wringer, all right. It makes me wonder...â He fell silent.
Something in the tone of his voice made her glance at him sharply. âWhat, Sam?â
He sighed, bouncing his fist on the steering wheel. âIf Iâm doing the right thing. That social worker, Mrs. Veatch, asked some pretty tough questions.â
A trickle of fear made Roniâs voice querulous. âLike what?â
âLike if Iâm ready to be a single parent. If taking Jessie, even with the best of intentions, is right for her.â
âWhat else would it be?â she demanded, her eyes growing wide with a premonition of disaster.
âSelfish.â Samâs blue gaze flicked to Roni, then snapped back to the highway. âAm I doing this for myself or for her? Maybe Jessie deserves a real family, with a mother and father, somebody who can offer her something more stable than a cowboyâs life.â
âWhat are you saying?â Roni whispered. âYouâd put her in a foster home?â
âThat was one suggestion. But there are plenty of couples whoâre dying to adopt. She could have all the advantages....â
âGive her up completely?â Roni couldnât hide her dismay.
âItâs not something Iâd do lightly. But, dammit, Curly, I just donât know if Iâm cut out for this, and Jessie needs two parents.â
Rather desperately, Roni said, âYou might get married again.â
âOld bachelor like me?â Sam grimaced. âNot likely. And I donât exactly have a sterling record in the marriage department anyway.â
âThat wasnât your fault,â she muttered, chagrined anew that her presence might have played a part in his failure to find another partner. And now Jessie could pay the price, as well. âAnd what about your promise to Alicia?â
A muscle worked in Samâs lean jaw, and his eyes narrowed, picking out the turn to the Lazy Diamond. âI said Iâd take care of Jessie. Finding a stable home environment where she can grow up secure and loved is the best way for me to keep that promise.â
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