his phone to anyone whoâll look. Showing my face to strangers.
I start the car and gun the engine a couple of times. If he moves just a little to his right, I could pick him off without hitting anyone else. The front of this Catalina is solid steel.He wonât even make a dent. I can just hose him off when I get home.
But I donât do it. It would be too easy. Too Koyaanisqatsi . Something has got to change and it will start with me not killing a rich kid whoâll go on drinking shit Scotch and stealing photos with people because heâll never know how close he came to frat-boy Heaven tonight.
I pull away from the curb and head home.
âI KEEP TELLING you,â says Kasabian when I come in. âIf you just buy the Girl Scoutsâ cookies, theyâll leave you alone.â
âThat gets funnier every time you say it.â
âItâll be even funnier next time.â
Kasabian runs things day to day at Maximum Overdrive, the video store where I live with him and Candy. Him downstairs in the back and me and Candy in the small apartment upstairs. This arrangement is best for everyone if for no other reason than Kasabian doesnât really have a body. I mean, he has one, but itâs not his. Itâs a retrofit from a mechanical hellhound body I stole when I could still shadow-walk Downtown.
âKeep going. Youâre going to talk yourself out of tamales.â
Kasabian holds up a mechanical hound paw.
âWitness me shutting up.â
The paw creaks a little as he says it. Sometimes he clanks when he walks. Thatâs the other reason he spends most of his time down here and not upstairs in our palatial penthouse. I set the tamales on the counter.
âSmart man. Howâs business?â
âWeâre doing all right. Still making bank off the specialstash. But we havenât had anything new in for a while. The requests are piling up.â
The special stash are videos a little witch named Maria gets for us through her ghost connections. Movies that donât really exist, at least in this time and space. James Cameronâs Spider-Man . Sergio Leoneâs The Godfather . Orson Wellesâs Heart of Darkness .
âDo you explain that our movies come from another fucking plane of reality? Itâs not like weâre rifling the bins at the Salvation Army.â
Kasabian lifts the edge of the tamales bag and looks inside. I close it and move the bag to the other end of the counter. He gives me a look.
âTheyâre customers,â he says. âThey know what they want and they want it now.â
âNext time someone whines, tell them to fuck off home and watch Kindergarten Cop on Netflix.â
He slips a DVD into a case and holds it up in my direction.
âAnd thatâs why youâre not allowed down here during business hours.â
âI have my own work these days. I donât have to mingle with you rabble.â
He points at my eye.
âYour boss give you that for mouthing off?â
âItâs still noticeable?â
âLike a glazed ham at a bris.â
âDonât say anything when you see Candy.â
I take the bag and head upstairs.
âHey. What about the tamales?â
âNo one eats until Candy gets home.â
âI admire her work ethic, but tell her to get a day job. Iâm hungry now.â
âDidnât someone say that suffering was good for the soul?â
âOnly preachers and insurance salesmen.â
âWeâre still waiting. Iâll put these in the oven to stay warm.â
I go upstairs, stash the tamales, and go into the bathroom. In the bathroom mirror, I stare at my face. Yeah. Thereâs no way sheâs not going to notice the bruise. It will be gone by morning, but right now Iâm fucked. For a second, I think about more ice, look at myself again, and see how stupid and desperate that is.
I take the angelâs box out of my coat and put it