new angle a curious bit of his individual body language. I’d seen it years before when he came to the house, bashfully determined to beard me in a lair rumoured to be dangerous. Later I’d seen it at that conference. I’d thought then it was some sort of illusion, I don’t know why, that drawing back of the chin into the neck, that look up under lowered brows. But no. When embarrassed Rick really did draw back the bottom half of his face, project a forehead supposed to be, hoped to be, brazen and look up under his eyebrows like a crab from under a rock. He did it now and not even to me. It had become mechanical and he did it to the lake as if determined to be undaunted by that pewter sheet.
“Come on, Rick—out with it!”
“It began with a mistake by my—our—secretary in the office. Ella. I used to get letters addressed to Professor Tucker. It was the same for everybody, a sales pitch, flattery.”
“So you took a leaf out of the commercial handbook. Bravo!”
“You’ll never know what your work’s meant to me.”
“If anyone lets on what a con man you are, you’ll be drummed out of the academic regiment.”
“It was that goddammed girl. Me too, I have to say. I let it ride.”
“You took a risk. Congratulations.”
“Worth it, though. Her mistake earned me this, hopefully, intimacy, sitting here like this, side by side.”
“How the hell else could we sit?”
“That girl, Wilf—” chin drawn back again, leaden waters fronted—“she liked me. She thought she was doing me a favour.”
“And John Crowe Ransom?”
“I really forget, Wilf. I really do. We did meet.”
Suddenly I saw that the waters were lifeless.
“What does it matter? I’m leaving tomorrow. Then Mary Lou’ll be able to sit on this bench without falling off it.”
There was a pause. Rick broke it.
“But you’ll have dinner with us tonight?”
“All three of us?”
“Surely.”
“Right. But you’ll be my guests. Old man’s privilege. The only one.”
“Mary Lou’s shy, Wilf. She always was. But she does know what a really warm person you are under that British exterior.”
“And I thought I was international.”
Rick stood up. He came out with one of his prepared statements.
“We’ve always thought of you, sir, as a really fine example of and credit to your Great Country.”
He took himself off down the bluff after his wife. He left me there nodding solemnly like a porcelain mandarin and murmuring, Be wary of Mary, don’t be a prick with Rick.
Then I added the loathsome words aloud.
“Hopefully in this encounter situation.”
Quite quickly sanity returned to me. They had been to the “quaint old house”. So this meeting was not accidental. They had wheedled my postes restantes out of Elizabeth, if not my agent. I was Rick’s special subject. I was his raw material, the ore in his mine, his farm, his lobster pots.
But where was he getting the money to come in pursuit? Such things are expensive, as I knew from an early attempt to get some letters back.
I thought of this girl, Mary Lou, with the transparent face of that beauty which must surely be holy and wise. Not like the poor old padre!
“Born again perhaps.”
The girl you meet every seven—no, every fourteen years, the one you meet, in fact, when it is all too late. I saw my sudden exhilaration for what it was, the symptom of my near-senility. I guessed how my breath must already stink of the morning’s Dôle. There might be much in this for Rick. There might be something in it for Mary Lou, opportunity to admire with distaste someone whose books she had read. But there could be nothing in it for me but fixation, frustration, folly and grief. I determined to sear this tiny bud of the future before it was in leaf. Let them chase someone else. There were authors enough to go round after all, authors by the thousand; and all with foreheads of such brass or lives of such impenetrable rectitude they could afford the deadliest of all
Guillermo Orsi, Nick Caistor